Tears...?

Maybe you could say the mornings are never terribly good, and well.. this morning was the worst. Only because I seriously did not want to go to school, I could have cared less and would have like to ditch, I was hella homesick, and wanted to be alone, but couldnt because it was pouring rain outside. Everymorning I get to school, sit at a table with cecile, usually some of her friends show up, like two or three, than Anthony arrives and we say hi, he goes to a different table, and then like seven more of ceciles friends come and crowd the table, including her boyfriend. Iono, I just feel so outta place sometimes with them, or hella random people, like... I try to say something, and they're just like whatever. And when cecile leaves, they dont talk to me all that much, so its fine, but I was hella depressed and shit, and even Anthony noticed and he was sitting all the way across the room. Anyways..I was hella depressed, and thats that. But.... I am semi-okay now.

Haha, about a week ago, I was helpin some guy with his english, but then I was just sitting there, and I starting playing with his scissors, and just thinking.. and didnt realize he was still there, and put the blade to my skin...wasnt really gonna cut myself or anything, im pretty sure I stopped that, but...he was like..wwwhhhoooaaaa. I was like nah nah nah, not me. It was....interesting, kindda like when I starting cutting myself in the center in front of Conner, hahaha. Anyways.. I guess my mood is kinda just blah.. I dont know if you can tell but.. who knows, im half sick and just not the greatest person right now.

Tommorrow I have classes in the morning, totally sucks, but then two free periods at the end of the day, which totally rocks, and im gonna spend it just chillin, relaxing, and havin fun. Wweee...

Peace, and Drink Tap X for me