Strange..

I Feel like posting something. But I dont have the slightest idea what to say.

Dude, so I dont know if its something I should talk about, I dont know what people seriously think of dreams. But: Ive been having this one dream, like three times, where me and Anthony go to california, and then to jesse's house. Everytime its a little bit different.

The first time I had the dream Anthony and I went to his house, and apparently jesse wasnt home, but a party was going on inside his house. So I walked in and used his house phone to call him to see where he was, and he said he was off doing something, and that his parents were allowing the party. The second time, I suggested jesse's, but I dont think we actually went. And the third time I had the dream, jesse had a house with a loft, and me and Anthony spent the night upstairs, and then had breakfast with jesse in the morning. Hella weird, and kinda trippy, haveing the same dream but different, like....almost consecutively.

Anyways, thats all I have to say. I really have to finish reading my book for class. And obviously I did have something to say. Hmmmmmm

Baa baaa ching

So like...

Yesterday I was in history class, and the person next to me was reading a text, and a person two seats away from me was intensely erasing something. I was looking down at my paper, and the desk started shaking like crazy, and I hella thought it was an earthquake. It was pretty funny, especially when I told ma friends, and they hella laughed, cause here there are apparently almost never earthquakes. And afterwards I tried to buy a hot chocolate, and I all I got was hot water in a plastic cup. Fucking machine, I wanted my hot chocolate.

And today, was totallyyy cooool. I went to a library hella close to school, and no joke, its an english library. Totally awesome, and I have all the books in english to my hearts desire. Weeee! And... hmm. So I have to read my book, I hope everything is going good there, and just to count down the days... My birthday is in 11 days. MAHaHAHAHAHAHA.

Drink Tap X for me... I miss it hellllaaa

And I miss you guys... So.. peace out

Someone made me smile...

Whoever was the annoymous person who gave me the link to this pic, you seriously just made my day. I couldnt stop laughing. Casey.. hes so... CASEY. eeeee

Hahaha, that was hilarious! Anyways.. yesterday.. I had school. Same old same old, and we dont get a break for thanksgiving, cause there like, is no thanksgiving. So, I dont eat turkey, and it freaking sucks! And I dont have CRANBERRY SAUCE!!! And it hellla blows. Last night... I went to Anthonys, and then the foyer. And came home and slept hella good. Whoever gave me the link to that pic, should tell me. Thanks

Fun Fun

So I went to the city with Sarah and Anthony, and we took hella pictures, like no ones buisness, and then just chilled. The trip to the city was basically just to take pictures... especially since I wanted to take pictures for jesses birthday, but never got around to it. So, heres a video (just me filming anthony and I think sarahs in it too), and pics. ENJOY

surveyyy

love your kisses, love your smell
love your bed, its comfrotable as well

EIGHT lasts
8. last cigarette: never
7. last beverage: orange juice and some kind of alchohol
6. last phone call: Anthony
5. last text message: no one
4. last cd played: Yannik Noah
3. last BUBBLE bath: cant even remember
2. last time you cried: friday
1. last meal: breakfast...?

EIGHT have you's:
8. have you ever dated someone twice: yep
7. have you ever been cheated on: maybe..fucking marcus
6. have you ever bought condoms?: nope
5. have you ever kissed someone & regret it?: yeah
4. have you ever fallen in love?: i thought.. but that was hella dumb
3. have you ever lost someone: as a good friend, yeah
2. have you ever been depressed: totally
1. have you ever been so drunk that you've thrown up? nope

SIX things you did in the past three days:
1. Went to school: Yes
2. Went to work: No
3. Colored: Hell yeah
Wheres FOUR?
5. Got drunk: Nope
6. Slept: totally

FOUR people you can tell pretty much anything to --
1. Colin 2. Lyuda And thats it

list THREE favorite colors.
1. Blue / Greeen 2. White 3. Black

list TWO things you want to do before you die -
1. Find my soul mate
2. Find my place in life, and just purely happy

So Far in '06 I have........
Been to school – DUR
Made a new friend – TONS
Fallen out of love - Definitely
Laughed until you cried – yeah
Went behind your parents back – Fa sho
Met someone who changed your life- Yes
Gotten close to someone- Yes
Found out who your true friends were: totally

.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF
1. Bush? Fucking Stupid ass redneck
2. Gay Marriage? Yay! My mommy could get married!
3. Lowering the drinking age? its lowered in france, why not?
4. Straight, Gay, Bi? Straight
5. Who is the best hugger that you know? Chelsie
6. Do you believe in Love at first sight: Hell no
7. Is there something you want to tell someone?..yes, cause I need to be straight up, but its hella personal, so I cant. And the consiquinces (sp?)...are shit.
8. What brand of shirt are you wearing? Von DUTCH
9. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? iono
10. How many people on your top friends do you know?All of them
11. How many kids do you want to have? I dont know if I want kids
12. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? I think so
13. Do you wanna change your name? My middle name
14. What did you do for your last birthday? Rode in a limo, went to In and Out, and wen to the movies
15. What time did you wake up today?11
16. What were you doing at midnight last night? Just going to bed
17. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: Freakin eat, im starving
18. Last time you saw your Dad? NEVER, oh wait, in a picture
19. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Iono
20. Which hand do you like better?Right
21.What are you listening to right now?Nothing
22.Have you ever talked to Tom? Hell no
23. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? Yes.
24. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? yeah
25. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? A jacket?
26. Who's getting on your nerves right now? Iono, no one
27. Most visited webpage? Your guys' blog
28. Would you help your best friend fight if he/she is losing? Dude... I would be strapped
29. Coke or Pepsi? COKE
30. Do you have a crush? Hell yesssss
31. have you kissed or been kissed by someone in the past week? Dude, like for the past four hours
32. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? Proabably, but sometimes I dont take the time to stop and think about it
33. Do you think there's some models/people out there, that should gain a couple pounds?Heck yes
34. Do you wish you lived in NYC? Helllll noooooo

Me = Retarded

Anthony: If you happen to be reading / translating this, im sorry for tonight. I miss you. JTM

Why the fuck im I so retarded? I swear, my emotions are like a fucking roller coaster here. For 30 minutes, im hella happy, laughing with Anthony, kissing, talking..chillin in his room. And we leave to go to the foyer...and he says one thing I get hella hyphy. It always happens, me being fucking stupid and just screwing everything up. And then I start getting depressed, and start thinking of home and arg, it pisses me off.

So it goes like this. Tonight we were at the foyer, im all depressed and shit, I could start to see Anthony get argrivated, so I tell him Im leaving and that I can walk alone. But he doesnt like that either, and I just leave without reallying saying good bye, and whats even worse, im proabably not even going to see him tomorrow. So, I just fucked everything up. Fuck.. Im soooo in a shitty mood, and want to run and appologize, but I cant leave the fucking house cause its 11, and Im too afraid to call and try to appologize over the phone... and shit. I dont know what to do. Maybe I will just try to forget, and go cry in the comfort of my bed.

Shit, this hella sucks

Two Pics Ya Never Saw

Lyuda, I emailed you! Check it! I was surprised to how quick I replied...weee, I rock, and sorry to those of you havent recieved a reply... if you shoot me a two word email, I garuntee you a reply, I just get sooo caught up, and only think about posting, cause you read. So... yeah.

Back to the point... Today was awesome, and I learned a new word! But in english, and thanks to lyuda. So, the new word is fornicate. Anyways, I went to school for three hours, spent an hour with Anthony, took the train home at around 12 or 12:30, and then ate lunch and went grocery shopping with Ceciles mom. Afterwards, I ate a snack, and like four small glasses of orange juice, and later more orange juice, and some hot choolate. But, while getting my cup, I dropped a glass on the floor while I was bare foot, and it shattered! *Gasp!* And then we cleaned up the mess and then I put on some flip flops, cause I hella dont want class in my feet, I fucking hate the doctor. Afterwards, I was pouring milk in my cup, and i missed and it went all over the counter! *Oh no!* And then.. finally I was drinking, and got chocolate on my plain white T.. *What has the world come to?!? * Gasp* It was hella funny, and today I have been listening to this one french song over and over and over again. I like like love it. So, the story with the pic on the right. First of all, I do not know this guy, and second of all I lost his email address. Whoops, but proabably did this on purpose, knowing that meeting a guy on a plane, isnt the best way to make friends. Anyways, this pic was taken on plane from Germany to Paris, and one hour ride, and this kid was just coming back from New York (check his hat, its stylin). Anyways, he knew like no english, and I knew pracitcally no french compared to know, and it was hilarious. Especially when he tried flirting with me, and I was like what the fuck are you doing, and all the exchange students were looking at me. Hahahaha. So, tonight, im gonna go to Anthonys... and mmmmm. Thats all I have to say. In case you didnt know, this is where I have been putting all my pics, so there might be some more you havent seen.

http://www.jenndiesi.com/jm/index.php?option=com_gallery2&Itemid=28&g2_view=core.ShowItem&g2_itemId=4947

Its on my moms website... This weekend, or well tomorrow, I have my first soccer game...and its been a month since I played. Ha, lucky me, but its gonna suck ass, since im playing with a team thats my age and below....so basically im gonna smash, but next weekend its back to my regular team. Oh snap! Jesse, you were in my dream! So actually it wasnt you, but me talking on the phone with you. Kinda weird, so it went like this. My and Anthony took a plane to alameda, and we didnt know what to do, and apparently it was dark outside and I was like, let go see jesse!! So I showed up at your house, and there was a monster party going on, and I grabbed the house phone and called you, and you told me you werent there. But your parents or something said the part was fine. It was very interesting. Anyways, im out peace...

And I miss you alll sooooo fucking much.

Long time no SEEEE

So, I havent posted in a while...ya know, been busy with life. Wow, and its true! I actually have a flourishing life, like...social life as well. ITs... interesting, and lovely.

So, I heard all about Sean Ryan, and how Dark and Sweet Meat alike got smashed. Like bananas when I make banana bread. SO sad, and you konw you all wish I was there...to lose and talk shit with you guys. Yes, that would be awesome. So anyways..

France.. its allright. You could say it goes, and that I had four hours for testing in french this morning. Lucky me, I actually thought I could do most of it, although it did take me almost the whole four hours, but the teacher was cool and gave me easy questions, and not that"Im a fluent french speaker test" bull shit. And afterwards I had two hours to chill, thank goodness. But I was a hoe, and didnt speak with Anthony, shit, im a freak, always parniod some girl is flirting with him... But I have trust.

Yesterday I was suppose to have soccer practice, but I lucked out and didnt cause there weren't enough girls that were going. And tomorrow Im gonna avoid going to Futsal as usual, and chill with my french hubbie, and friday I finish school at 11 ish, so its gonna be hella chill cause I take the train home, and can be alone! mwhahaha

Today was allright... But I talked with my grandpa for a few minutes, and then got the number of my grandmas work, and then called her. It was so amazing hearing her lovely lively voice, especially since I havent talked to her in forever, and she was so heappy that I called, especially at work which was unexpected. And while eating dinner my mom called me back, so I talked to her for a minute as well.

"Shes sayin come get me...so I got up and follwed her to the flow..she said baby lets go"

Waffles and Nutella

Its hella nice to have hella chill days. Especially after vacation.

Today I had the math test at 10, and I actually felt I could..make something come out of my head, like something usefull. It was pretty great, but this feeling is going to go away, I know it, when I get my test back. And I think I skipped over a problem. Oh well. After the test I had lunch in the city, and then I chilled with Anthony and Sarah at school..and I had three hours after my test to just chill before I had to go to French. It was awesome.

After school I rode home with Anthony (he has a license and a car, gooo him), but not before walking to the car parked like 5 blocks away...dang. And we spent like... an hour getting home, or somewhere around there cause of traffic, and a strike going on. It was hella chill... and it was great.

I dont know if I told you guys, but I went Ice skating, and it was hella fun. And after we went to Mc.Donalds... which is like totally different than here, and they dont have that many things you can choose from.. IT was weird. But anyways.. I heard you guts "ditched" jesse while heading to In and Out eh? Hahahaaha, Im not laughing at you jesse, but with you...

Lyuda.. write something new for me.

Miss you guys

Yeesssss

Today was a good day, but I have a feeling its going to end badly. I had math first period, then this English class type thing, and then two hours of French, and then finally english at 12 oclock. During my classes I was kinda lonely, cause my usual friend wasnt there, so I just kinda sat there and day dreamed the whole time, instead of passing notes and giggling.

But.. my history teacher wasnt there, so I was done with all classes at like 1 oclock, and normally im done at like 4, so I had three hours to chill. I ate lunch in the city, and then played cards with this guy in my class for..a good amount of time. IT was hella chilll.. till the next epidsode. And tomorrow is gonna be chill I think, cause all I have is a test at 10 oclock, and then I chill for three hours, and then I have French, and I chill some more, and then go home. Weeeee. But It sucks cause I dont get to sleep...and im proabably going to bomb my math test. Oh well.

Tonight I start soccer practice again.. and I hella dont want to, but seriously, I really dont feel I have a choice, cause I think the parents here payed for it, even though I told them not to. Shit. But Im suupose to start futsal again on thursday after school, but im gonna be..not smart and avoid the teacher and hopefully chill with Anthony and friends. Yessss.

So, have a good Tuesday, and drink Tap X for me.

Meat Cleavers... What a Wonderful Phrase

Today was the first day back to school...after the vacation. And.. I dont wanna go back, I like just living in France and like totally not going to school. So there. And I.. I dont like my teacher... bar. I wanna chop his face off with a freaking MEAT CLEAVER.

So today I bought a journal, so I can start to write to myself, and not just to you guys, and Ive already written four pages just about my journey, and my feelings about today. And then I had a little dispute / argument / discussion with Céciles mom. It was about eating habits, and after reading one of lyuda's blogs... hehe, I just couldnt help myself. But anyways... Ceciles mom is very big on eating meat, and I kinda told her that I didnt eat meat. I thought it was cause of nutritional value like protein and shit, but like seriously I dont eat a lot of vegatables over here. And anyways.... she didnt like what I was saying, but whatever, I really dont care. And then she said I was being obsinate, and it freaking pissed me off, along with the fact that my jeans arent dry for tomorrow, which is really quite dumb of me but whatever. And I havent memorized my french homework, and... all of this nonsense along with Anthony not seeming too interested in me when I walked past him in the hall to go to class, and hardly seeing him at all today, and tomorrow will be the same, and waking up with a hella bad headache... Just made my day kind shit. And that fuckin ass SVT teacher, fuck. Like I said, with a Meat Cleaver, most of my problems could be solved.

THE END

JTM

I need to get my head in the game. Shyt son.

This whole vacation... I just sorta wasted in a way. I thought I would at least attempt my homework, try and get ahead, and learn hella french. But seriously... I have spent the week and a half just sitting around, going shopping, hanging with friends, and not thinking about anything. (Let me tell you, it was heelllaaaa fun) Its kinda funny in a way... Jesse and I were sending emails back and forth, and he gave me some good advice; Im here in france for the culture and the language, its something I will remember. I took it a little too seriously, and now I've dug my self a litlle hole.

For my french class I think I had to memorize a poem or something. I mean, thats the only thing I really had to do... Okay, so heres my dillemma. Im thinking this is the only thing I needed to do during the vacation, and I couldnt even do it. But then I think, its like the stupidest thing ever, and my french teacher is...shit. Cause seriously, I already had to memorize two poems. So tomorrow I have french... and I am sooo not looking forward to it. Oh well. I really dont care.

Et maintenant, M. Vincent a dit c'est importante pour moi parler français. D'accord? Okay, that was weird... Ceciles dad just came over and was like you need to write french, yadda yadda. Right... Like seriously... No.

Anyways. Last night I had dinner at Anthony's, and then we chilled with some people at the foyer. And I got home around midnight, and then I slept till 11:30 this morning, and totally forgot that I was going to go running with Cécile. And then I took a shower, had lunch, and then played this game called "Jungle Speed". Its hella coooool. And afterwards me and cécile went to Anthonys, and layed around, and then cécile left.....and it was just me and Anthony, and we chilled hard core.

I soo do not want to go to school tomorrow. Its like... nooooo. . .. "The World is Coming to an End, and My Life is Spiriling Down a Black Abyss" okay, so its not true, cause im in france, but I think you get the point that its suppose to be extremely dramatic. So in a way this is the end, the end of vacation, and the start of something new. But not really.

Peace and Love,

And I miss my mommy : (

Whoopss....

So, I kinda screwed myself over. I dont know how it happened, I think I did it accidentally, but I gave some of these french people the link to my blog, and without realizing that they might actually wanna read it. And actually can... So thinking I can write hella personal shit on this blog about france, or about the people here, is almost complete nonsense. Especially since Ceciles sister even reads it... What have I gotten myself into?

Oh well, its my thoughts. . .

Lost In Translation

Sometimes I feel hella lost, like.. I cant speak french, so why try? Its a feeling I get many nights.. But I know I gotta pull myself together, and tomorrow will be a better day. Fa Sho. And Me and Cecile are hella cool, way cooler than the other side of the pillow.
Yesterday...I think I just chilled, and didnt do anything be be hella lazy. Oh yeah..I went to Anthony's.... and.. mmhmmm. And today im just chillin, and thinking about what a bad kid I am for procractinating WAY too much on my homework. Its hella funny cause when I procrastinate, I dont think about homework for hella long, like a week will go by, and then I realize I didnt do something, and im like shit, and its all I think about, and seriously, I dreamt about my freaking homework two nights ago. Its incredibly annoying. So do your homework ACLC buddies... cause if you dont.. you will dream about it! And you know how you dont want Maafi at school, and in your dreams. That would be some scary shit.

...skin is sooo smooth....

I can tell you all the digusting things I’ve eaten and seen.. Oh man, they make me try everything I havent had before. I want to lie, and I dont want to try, but hey…thats what Im here for, eh? In case you didnt know, I had to eat: Rabbit Paté (sp), some other kind of paté, and yesterday I had the tongue of an anyomous “beef”, although im pretty sure it was Cow. And today while at some grand store, kinda like a walmart (a mix between food and..things other than food), I saw the word CHEVAL (horse), and under it a bunch of red meat. I think I started squealing and grabbed ceciles moms arm and was like ”people eat horse?“ She said that she doesnt, and wont ever cook, but yeah, people eat horse. Bleck. Ha, and I ate a chicken that ceciles grandmother killed herself, and cooked. And it was hella good, I aint gonna lie.

The first day of every November, the people here go to mess, and then go to the cementary to remeber the dead. It was kinda sad in a way… seeing like three of their family members..in the ground. But I thought it was really neat, like they have a day picked for visiting, and their bodies or at least gravestones are buried so close, that you can just go whenever you want. Like seriously, I was so thrilled there was a graveyard 5 blocks away, although it is chilling, that we should just go and walk down there sometime. After the graveyard buisness, I didnt go to the mess, we had lunch at ceciles grandparents with about 15 other people. And after that I went to Anthonys and just chilled for two hours. Sersiouly, big family lunchs and dinners will wear you out..just sitting at a table for 2 and a half hours… sooooo long and borning.

Today I went shopping, and bought a jacket and a shirt/sweater type thingy. Its becoming the start of winter, and this morning I pulled some ice of the grass. Okay, so maybe it was frost, but hey.. It was really cold outside, and seeing frost was super cool. Earlier this evening I went to the chiropractor. I really didnt want to go, but these frenchies make me god damnit. Anyways, it was alright, it was a women and she kind messaged my leg, it felt good, and now I can start to play soccer agina… not that I want to or anything…but you know.. I dont wanna get super fat. Hahahahaha. And Earlier today I took a walk in my jacket, and then...hung out with Anthony at his house, and then went grociery shopping and bought shampoo and a pomegranate, so I can get these frenchies a little bit more…into the swing of cool things.

My vacation has been fabuloso, but its slowly coming to an end. Tomorrow I think I might just hang out and chill, proabably work on some forgotten homework, and vacuum / pick up my room. Saturday… Im going to hang out with some friends, and Sunday who knows what..proabably eat the last box of thai food my mom sent me.