PERDU

I have some weird emotions.

First of all, the last two times ive tried calling my mom shes been busy. I mean, I guess its normal and shit, but then when shes busy, I dont feel like talking to her later, cause she was busy before, like retaliating and shit. Same thing goes with Anthony.

Earlier today I told him we proabably wouldnt see each other today, but later he sends me a text message saying hes not doing anything, and I tell him me too. Hes knows I cant just leave the house, well it depends, and later everyone is over at a friends house, im not invited, and now im stuck at home, and decide that I dont ever wanna leave. Im like locking myself up. And seriously he never stops by. It pisses me off.

I always feel so lost, I dont know why. And its not even lost, I just feel... arg. yep, arg. Whatever, screw it, I dont need friends right now, I dont even need Anthony, so why... why why why, that is the question. I need to be more fucking independent, what the hella is wrong with me, shit.

Leb die Sekunde

Dang, didnt even think about checking wikipedia. Kollin is hella right, and I find it ironic that when you look on wikipedia, it relates him with DAVID BOWIE, im serious, its no wonder why im obsessing over him. And I have to admit, thats hes hella finer than david bowie, like whoa... hella beautiful.

Yeah, went to see Ghost Rider, really did suck, but yeah, he did have a 10 pack, that was... incredible. But I wasnt dissappointed with the kid nicolas cage... ^^. Haha. And I think I want my hair cut like Bills, hella clean.

-this post is dedicated to Kollin, who gave me the wikipedia link

Hot Ass German Guy

I am so addicted to the main singer, its not even funny. Im completely serious. Its kind of REDICULOUS, mais je trouve que il est TROP BEAU!!! so there. MMMMMMMMMMM. So fucking pretty...... hes beautiful... okay imma stop there.

Wednesday Anthony and I went on a date.
It was pretty sweet... just the two of us. I went to his house around 6 and ate some crepes, and then at 6:30 we left for the local Safeway type store so I could get money and buy some gummy bears. But I couldnt find just gummy bears, so I bought gummy Smurfs, which were blue. Hella yummy. There was actually traffic heading into the city, which was unexpected, and when we found parking in front of our school, we ran to the theater. I thought it was nessicary, we were parking when the film was starting, but Anthony didnt. It was pretty good film, you should... watch it someday. Little Children.

Later today Im gonna go see Ghost Rider with Anthony and some friends. ITs gonna be.. interesitng, especially in french, but maybe Nick Cage will be better in french. I hate that guy.

And lests see... I am so incredibly behind on my homework, it sucks. But not doing homework makes my vacations like incredible, im always doing something, and not sitting in this boring old house. I actually.. have a life here. ITs incredible. And the German guy IS HOOOTTTTT.