The past two days were really good, and I got to experience more of the french culture. The night of the 24th, the day of my last post, we left the house around 6ish, and started to drive to Angers. 5 to 7 minutes into driving, we realized that we had left some presents at the house, so we turned around and went to pick them up. Once we got to Angers, we parked about 2 or three blocks away from the church (an extremely catholic church), and then walked / jogged to the church, 1. beacause we were late, and 2. because it felt like 40 degrees outside. We got the church, and there were already a bunch of poeple inside, so we had to stand the hour and half. I didnt really understand anything, not that I was really listening, but I was pretty tired from running that morning (at 10ish, went running with Ceciles dad 3 miles, super super cold). After church, we got back into the car and drove to a relatives who live farely close to Angers.
We all sat in a big circle in the living room (maybe 20-25 people) and started with the appetizer. But, here its called the appartif, or something, and its not only an appetizer, but whenever someone comes to the house to say hi, or drop something of, you offer them the “appartif” (sp?), which usually conists of alcohol and something to eat. So for the appartif, we drank some kind of alcohol, the best yet, and they pasted around little plates of food. At around this time, it was already midnight. After the appartif, we sat around, and started with the ACTUAL appetizer, which was oyesters and shrimp, the traditional for a french christmas dinner, so I was told many times. After that, they cleared the tables, and we opened some gifts from random relatives in the family, and im not even completely sure who gave what to me. I got a candle shaped like a chirstmas tree, a bowl with chocolates (and written on the bowl is Etriche, the name of the town I live in), and a book with pictures and discriptions of all the castles in the Loire Valley.. I think. Either after or before that, we went into this little boys room, and he played his lion king, and cecile sang in french, and I sang in english. We then satdown for the actual meal, proabably around 2 oclock, and ate Garic Potatoes, Celery in the form of Mashed Potatos puré, or what not, and Boar. Hey, and I didint eat Fois Gras, cause thats like torture and just plain disgusting in my opining, but I did eat a snail. And I still have its shell (and no it was not good). After dinner we exchanged our gifts that were ”blue anf liquid”. Every chirstmas, they have this santa gift exchange thingy, were you have to buy a gift under 2 euros and that fits into the catagory. And this year it was blue and liquid. After that we had desert, which was coconut and mango ice cream.. We then said our goodbyes at around 3:45, and I got home and went to bedaround 4:30. One of the things here in France is that things begin super late in the evening, and you dont leave till early morning.
The day of christmas, I got up around 10:30, so I could put a little stuffed animal in Ceciles sisters car. Everyone else got up around 11 oclock, and then we gathered in the dining room with the presents and small christmas tree. We told cecile that she was the first one to open a present, but she said no, so we all opended them together. I got a photo album, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Yannik Noah (a french singer), a sweater, a scarf, a T shirt, and loads of chocolate. And also juggeling balls, cause I was always juggeling oranges, and ceciles mom didnt want me to drop it on the floor and ruin it. At around 12 oclock, Cecile and I walked to her grandmothers house about 3 blocks away. We greeted everyone, and waited for the rest of the family to arrive before starting lunch. For lunch, I find the usualy family thing is carrots, hard boiled eggs, all mixed with some kind of vinagret sauce. Afterwards we ate chicken and turkey, potatoes, and green beans. While there I talked to another exhange student who lives close by with the family, hes 20, and for chirstmas his sister and twin brother were there. They are all super friendly. Its kinda funny though, cause the guy, Pedro, speaks only spanish and french, and his brother know spanish, italien, and some english. So I was speaking french to pedro, and he speaks only spanish to his borther, and his brother speaks english with me. Its like a three way thingy. Ater lunch, we played Monopoly, and I whooped everyone with 7 hotels. Afterwards was a short dinner, cause everyone was still full from lunch, at least I was, and then we left.
While leaving, Anthony and his cousin were outside, so I went to Anthonys and we watched Star Wars 3 in french, but not before I stole the remote and switched it to english…Haha, Hayden Christiansen definitely sounds better in english. Afterwards they walked me home and the three of us drank hot chocolate, and chilled, and then they left at around 11ish, and I called my mommy, chelsie, and grandparents. It was a pretty good christmas in FRANCE…..
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Saturday, December 23, 2006
X-Mas is on its way...
I dont know why I havent posted so long, but in acutality, I think Ive been trying to use my actual website than this, cause its my mom who set it up, and a lot more people have that address, like my grandparents for example.
So, life is still the same, the language is still improving with time, but Im starting to think I need to put a lot more effort into this, and not get lost in just having fun in France (I dont want this to be another episode of Algebra 2). Lately Ive been trying to read this kids book, quite hard, I always manage to get the concept, but there are incredibly a lot of words that I dont know, or if I know the word, I dont reconize the conjugation foorm, making the sentence totally wacked.
Other than that, christmas without my mommy, and instead a HUGE familly is totally gonna be different. Here, we dont spend it with just the family at home, itslike with all the freakin relatives, and its crazy. Im already kinda missing just being home alone with my mom. Christmas will be allight though, not as good as anyother, just because im not exactly looking forward to the whole christmas Mass at church, these people here are more religous than others, and... its interesting.
School is going..allright. I guess it really could have been better, especially if I had actually put some effort into my math class, instead of blowing it off. I dont really pay attention too much, and I completely bombed the test that I took wednesday, like the worst test eveer for me. French class is surprisingly the best class...or the one im best at. The others..are just kinda there. Dont really do much in them..
Home life is good... I wont get to see Anthony for three days, but maybe thats a good thing. Get away and live some family life. Yesterday when I got home I cleaned my room, and then lit a candle, and it looked hella good. Céciles sisters are here, thats cool, I dont get to see them too often, and its break for me know, and I have a good amount of french homework, and I seriously hope that I dont just blow it off. So, I finally got my box that I was waiting for... Had my book, another pair of shoes, well, cause my mom ordered some online as well, accidentaly (long story, its on my website), and some fuzzy warm socks and chocolate. The book...was like the greatest book everrr. No joke.. I seriously took it every where, especially since I had been waiting for that book forever (its the second one in the series). Hella good, I read it in 4 days, and last night I had a dream with the hot and sexy vampire in the book...damn, hes hella fine. But it took my box soo long to get here cause my mom accidentally switched the numbers, sending my book to Paris. lol. Oh welll....
"HAPPY HOLIDAYS"
So, life is still the same, the language is still improving with time, but Im starting to think I need to put a lot more effort into this, and not get lost in just having fun in France (I dont want this to be another episode of Algebra 2). Lately Ive been trying to read this kids book, quite hard, I always manage to get the concept, but there are incredibly a lot of words that I dont know, or if I know the word, I dont reconize the conjugation foorm, making the sentence totally wacked.
Other than that, christmas without my mommy, and instead a HUGE familly is totally gonna be different. Here, we dont spend it with just the family at home, itslike with all the freakin relatives, and its crazy. Im already kinda missing just being home alone with my mom. Christmas will be allight though, not as good as anyother, just because im not exactly looking forward to the whole christmas Mass at church, these people here are more religous than others, and... its interesting.
School is going..allright. I guess it really could have been better, especially if I had actually put some effort into my math class, instead of blowing it off. I dont really pay attention too much, and I completely bombed the test that I took wednesday, like the worst test eveer for me. French class is surprisingly the best class...or the one im best at. The others..are just kinda there. Dont really do much in them..
Home life is good... I wont get to see Anthony for three days, but maybe thats a good thing. Get away and live some family life. Yesterday when I got home I cleaned my room, and then lit a candle, and it looked hella good. Céciles sisters are here, thats cool, I dont get to see them too often, and its break for me know, and I have a good amount of french homework, and I seriously hope that I dont just blow it off. So, I finally got my box that I was waiting for... Had my book, another pair of shoes, well, cause my mom ordered some online as well, accidentaly (long story, its on my website), and some fuzzy warm socks and chocolate. The book...was like the greatest book everrr. No joke.. I seriously took it every where, especially since I had been waiting for that book forever (its the second one in the series). Hella good, I read it in 4 days, and last night I had a dream with the hot and sexy vampire in the book...damn, hes hella fine. But it took my box soo long to get here cause my mom accidentally switched the numbers, sending my book to Paris. lol. Oh welll....
"HAPPY HOLIDAYS"
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Where are you?
Why haven’t I received my box of love?
Filled with shoes and great book…
The nights are endless,
When I think only of you my precious cardboard,
And how I hope you havent lost your way,
Its just something I cannot afford.
This afternoon..
While opening the mail box,
I thought of you and your sweet ways,
But there was nothing there…
Please hear my cry,
And come my way,
At least before…
My birthday.
Never Again.... ?
Ysterday was Tuesday. It was..an "OK day", and surprisingly soccer practice was the best part. There were only five of us there, and we laughed hella much (actually it was me being completely ridiculous that was making them laugh..singing songs from hella random ass disney movies). One of my favorite girls there put like a worm in my sock, and then I tried to put it down her shirt, but failed miserably. Ysterday after school I dragged Sarah to the english library and I read Green Eggs and Ham to her. Good times....
I dont know, these last few days have been..just so something. I can never put my finger on it, but I started ultimate with my PE class, and its just a bunch of ruckus, and we play indoor on like two big basketball courts (but two games on these courts). It made me miss Dark Meat so incredibly much. And I tried to tell the girls this and that, and they were like were not sure, so were gonna ask the teacher. Im like.. I play, I think I know the rules. Seriously, the coach thought the rules were this way, im thinking thats incredibly stupid, thats not how you play, and I told her how it went down, and shes like no. I was like Ok OK, and then finally she found the rule somewhere and said that I was right. That made me feel a little bit better...
Today Im staying at home until 1 ish, lucky me I dont have to take a test today, and I got to sleep in. It was excellent. Really sucks though, cause I know I need to do my homework but I managed to miss place it, cause its not in my binder, and I dont want to get up and search for it.
Okay I take that back, I just found it.
A years a long time.. but its going by incredbily fast. Its really interesting to me how I managed to leave you guys for a year, whitout even thinking twice about it. I thought that you would all still be there when I get back, and its true, and I guess I didnt think about leaving you guys because I would be returning. But here, just thinking about it now... Im getting attached to people without even thinking about it, but in reality, I may never see them again after schools over. I mean.. my friends at school. School life is almost completely seperate from my home life, except for Anthony and Cécile. My friends Sarah and Marion...they live in completely seperate areas, and I really doubt that I will see them again, its almost wishful thinking. But with Cécile, she'll proabably be coming back with me after the programs over for a couple weeks during the summer. And If I return here to visit, Anthonys here as well.. But the others..its almost impossible, and it makes me feel as if Im just being friends with them, and then im just gonna lose them in 7 months, and it sucks hella bad.
I dont know, these last few days have been..just so something. I can never put my finger on it, but I started ultimate with my PE class, and its just a bunch of ruckus, and we play indoor on like two big basketball courts (but two games on these courts). It made me miss Dark Meat so incredibly much. And I tried to tell the girls this and that, and they were like were not sure, so were gonna ask the teacher. Im like.. I play, I think I know the rules. Seriously, the coach thought the rules were this way, im thinking thats incredibly stupid, thats not how you play, and I told her how it went down, and shes like no. I was like Ok OK, and then finally she found the rule somewhere and said that I was right. That made me feel a little bit better...
Today Im staying at home until 1 ish, lucky me I dont have to take a test today, and I got to sleep in. It was excellent. Really sucks though, cause I know I need to do my homework but I managed to miss place it, cause its not in my binder, and I dont want to get up and search for it.
Okay I take that back, I just found it.
A years a long time.. but its going by incredbily fast. Its really interesting to me how I managed to leave you guys for a year, whitout even thinking twice about it. I thought that you would all still be there when I get back, and its true, and I guess I didnt think about leaving you guys because I would be returning. But here, just thinking about it now... Im getting attached to people without even thinking about it, but in reality, I may never see them again after schools over. I mean.. my friends at school. School life is almost completely seperate from my home life, except for Anthony and Cécile. My friends Sarah and Marion...they live in completely seperate areas, and I really doubt that I will see them again, its almost wishful thinking. But with Cécile, she'll proabably be coming back with me after the programs over for a couple weeks during the summer. And If I return here to visit, Anthonys here as well.. But the others..its almost impossible, and it makes me feel as if Im just being friends with them, and then im just gonna lose them in 7 months, and it sucks hella bad.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Dear Maya...
I hate it when people post annoymous shit, and then Im not sure who posted.
And I didnt reply to your email.. but eh. So tonight im gonna go to this huge carnival, its gonna be "tite". Hahaha.
And I didnt reply to your email.. but eh. So tonight im gonna go to this huge carnival, its gonna be "tite". Hahaha.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Strange..
I Feel like posting something. But I dont have the slightest idea what to say.
Dude, so I dont know if its something I should talk about, I dont know what people seriously think of dreams. But: Ive been having this one dream, like three times, where me and Anthony go to california, and then to jesse's house. Everytime its a little bit different.
The first time I had the dream Anthony and I went to his house, and apparently jesse wasnt home, but a party was going on inside his house. So I walked in and used his house phone to call him to see where he was, and he said he was off doing something, and that his parents were allowing the party. The second time, I suggested jesse's, but I dont think we actually went. And the third time I had the dream, jesse had a house with a loft, and me and Anthony spent the night upstairs, and then had breakfast with jesse in the morning. Hella weird, and kinda trippy, haveing the same dream but different, like....almost consecutively.
Anyways, thats all I have to say. I really have to finish reading my book for class. And obviously I did have something to say. Hmmmmmm
Dude, so I dont know if its something I should talk about, I dont know what people seriously think of dreams. But: Ive been having this one dream, like three times, where me and Anthony go to california, and then to jesse's house. Everytime its a little bit different.
The first time I had the dream Anthony and I went to his house, and apparently jesse wasnt home, but a party was going on inside his house. So I walked in and used his house phone to call him to see where he was, and he said he was off doing something, and that his parents were allowing the party. The second time, I suggested jesse's, but I dont think we actually went. And the third time I had the dream, jesse had a house with a loft, and me and Anthony spent the night upstairs, and then had breakfast with jesse in the morning. Hella weird, and kinda trippy, haveing the same dream but different, like....almost consecutively.
Anyways, thats all I have to say. I really have to finish reading my book for class. And obviously I did have something to say. Hmmmmmm
Baa baaa ching
So like...
Yesterday I was in history class, and the person next to me was reading a text, and a person two seats away from me was intensely erasing something. I was looking down at my paper, and the desk started shaking like crazy, and I hella thought it was an earthquake. It was pretty funny, especially when I told ma friends, and they hella laughed, cause here there are apparently almost never earthquakes. And afterwards I tried to buy a hot chocolate, and I all I got was hot water in a plastic cup. Fucking machine, I wanted my hot chocolate.
And today, was totallyyy cooool. I went to a library hella close to school, and no joke, its an english library. Totally awesome, and I have all the books in english to my hearts desire. Weeee! And... hmm. So I have to read my book, I hope everything is going good there, and just to count down the days... My birthday is in 11 days. MAHaHAHAHAHAHA.
Drink Tap X for me... I miss it hellllaaa
And I miss you guys... So.. peace out
Yesterday I was in history class, and the person next to me was reading a text, and a person two seats away from me was intensely erasing something. I was looking down at my paper, and the desk started shaking like crazy, and I hella thought it was an earthquake. It was pretty funny, especially when I told ma friends, and they hella laughed, cause here there are apparently almost never earthquakes. And afterwards I tried to buy a hot chocolate, and I all I got was hot water in a plastic cup. Fucking machine, I wanted my hot chocolate.
And today, was totallyyy cooool. I went to a library hella close to school, and no joke, its an english library. Totally awesome, and I have all the books in english to my hearts desire. Weeee! And... hmm. So I have to read my book, I hope everything is going good there, and just to count down the days... My birthday is in 11 days. MAHaHAHAHAHAHA.
Drink Tap X for me... I miss it hellllaaa
And I miss you guys... So.. peace out
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Someone made me smile...
Whoever was the annoymous person who gave me the link to this pic, you seriously just made my day. I couldnt stop laughing. Casey.. hes so... CASEY. eeeee
Hahaha, that was hilarious! Anyways.. yesterday.. I had school. Same old same old, and we dont get a break for thanksgiving, cause there like, is no thanksgiving. So, I dont eat turkey, and it freaking sucks! And I dont have CRANBERRY SAUCE!!! And it hellla blows. Last night... I went to Anthonys, and then the foyer. And came home and slept hella good. Whoever gave me the link to that pic, should tell me. Thanks
Friday, November 24, 2006
Fun Fun
So I went to the city with Sarah and Anthony, and we took hella pictures, like no ones buisness, and then just chilled. The trip to the city was basically just to take pictures... especially since I wanted to take pictures for jesses birthday, but never got around to it. So, heres a video (just me filming anthony and I think sarahs in it too), and pics. ENJOY
Sunday, November 19, 2006
surveyyy
love your kisses, love your smell
love your bed, its comfrotable as well
EIGHT lasts
8. last cigarette: never
7. last beverage: orange juice and some kind of alchohol
6. last phone call: Anthony
5. last text message: no one
4. last cd played: Yannik Noah
3. last BUBBLE bath: cant even remember
2. last time you cried: friday
1. last meal: breakfast...?
EIGHT have you's:
8. have you ever dated someone twice: yep
7. have you ever been cheated on: maybe..fucking marcus
6. have you ever bought condoms?: nope
5. have you ever kissed someone & regret it?: yeah
4. have you ever fallen in love?: i thought.. but that was hella dumb
3. have you ever lost someone: as a good friend, yeah
2. have you ever been depressed: totally
1. have you ever been so drunk that you've thrown up? nope
SIX things you did in the past three days:
1. Went to school: Yes
2. Went to work: No
3. Colored: Hell yeah
Wheres FOUR?
5. Got drunk: Nope
6. Slept: totally
FOUR people you can tell pretty much anything to --
1. Colin 2. Lyuda And thats it
list THREE favorite colors.
1. Blue / Greeen 2. White 3. Black
list TWO things you want to do before you die -
1. Find my soul mate
2. Find my place in life, and just purely happy
So Far in '06 I have........
Been to school – DUR
Made a new friend – TONS
Fallen out of love - Definitely
Laughed until you cried – yeah
Went behind your parents back – Fa sho
Met someone who changed your life- Yes
Gotten close to someone- Yes
Found out who your true friends were: totally
.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF
1. Bush? Fucking Stupid ass redneck
2. Gay Marriage? Yay! My mommy could get married!
3. Lowering the drinking age? its lowered in france, why not?
4. Straight, Gay, Bi? Straight
5. Who is the best hugger that you know? Chelsie
6. Do you believe in Love at first sight: Hell no
7. Is there something you want to tell someone?..yes, cause I need to be straight up, but its hella personal, so I cant. And the consiquinces (sp?)...are shit.
8. What brand of shirt are you wearing? Von DUTCH
9. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? iono
10. How many people on your top friends do you know?All of them
11. How many kids do you want to have? I dont know if I want kids
12. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? I think so
13. Do you wanna change your name? My middle name
14. What did you do for your last birthday? Rode in a limo, went to In and Out, and wen to the movies
15. What time did you wake up today?11
16. What were you doing at midnight last night? Just going to bed
17. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: Freakin eat, im starving
18. Last time you saw your Dad? NEVER, oh wait, in a picture
19. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Iono
20. Which hand do you like better?Right
21.What are you listening to right now?Nothing
22.Have you ever talked to Tom? Hell no
23. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? Yes.
24. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? yeah
25. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? A jacket?
26. Who's getting on your nerves right now? Iono, no one
27. Most visited webpage? Your guys' blog
28. Would you help your best friend fight if he/she is losing? Dude... I would be strapped
29. Coke or Pepsi? COKE
30. Do you have a crush? Hell yesssss
31. have you kissed or been kissed by someone in the past week? Dude, like for the past four hours
32. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? Proabably, but sometimes I dont take the time to stop and think about it
33. Do you think there's some models/people out there, that should gain a couple pounds?Heck yes
34. Do you wish you lived in NYC? Helllll noooooo
love your bed, its comfrotable as well
EIGHT lasts
8. last cigarette: never
7. last beverage: orange juice and some kind of alchohol
6. last phone call: Anthony
5. last text message: no one
4. last cd played: Yannik Noah
3. last BUBBLE bath: cant even remember
2. last time you cried: friday
1. last meal: breakfast...?
EIGHT have you's:
8. have you ever dated someone twice: yep
7. have you ever been cheated on: maybe..fucking marcus
6. have you ever bought condoms?: nope
5. have you ever kissed someone & regret it?: yeah
4. have you ever fallen in love?: i thought.. but that was hella dumb
3. have you ever lost someone: as a good friend, yeah
2. have you ever been depressed: totally
1. have you ever been so drunk that you've thrown up? nope
SIX things you did in the past three days:
1. Went to school: Yes
2. Went to work: No
3. Colored: Hell yeah
Wheres FOUR?
5. Got drunk: Nope
6. Slept: totally
FOUR people you can tell pretty much anything to --
1. Colin 2. Lyuda And thats it
list THREE favorite colors.
1. Blue / Greeen 2. White 3. Black
list TWO things you want to do before you die -
1. Find my soul mate
2. Find my place in life, and just purely happy
So Far in '06 I have........
Been to school – DUR
Made a new friend – TONS
Fallen out of love - Definitely
Laughed until you cried – yeah
Went behind your parents back – Fa sho
Met someone who changed your life- Yes
Gotten close to someone- Yes
Found out who your true friends were: totally
.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF
1. Bush? Fucking Stupid ass redneck
2. Gay Marriage? Yay! My mommy could get married!
3. Lowering the drinking age? its lowered in france, why not?
4. Straight, Gay, Bi? Straight
5. Who is the best hugger that you know? Chelsie
6. Do you believe in Love at first sight: Hell no
7. Is there something you want to tell someone?..yes, cause I need to be straight up, but its hella personal, so I cant. And the consiquinces (sp?)...are shit.
8. What brand of shirt are you wearing? Von DUTCH
9. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? iono
10. How many people on your top friends do you know?All of them
11. How many kids do you want to have? I dont know if I want kids
12. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? I think so
13. Do you wanna change your name? My middle name
14. What did you do for your last birthday? Rode in a limo, went to In and Out, and wen to the movies
15. What time did you wake up today?11
16. What were you doing at midnight last night? Just going to bed
17. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: Freakin eat, im starving
18. Last time you saw your Dad? NEVER, oh wait, in a picture
19. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Iono
20. Which hand do you like better?Right
21.What are you listening to right now?Nothing
22.Have you ever talked to Tom? Hell no
23. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? Yes.
24. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? yeah
25. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? A jacket?
26. Who's getting on your nerves right now? Iono, no one
27. Most visited webpage? Your guys' blog
28. Would you help your best friend fight if he/she is losing? Dude... I would be strapped
29. Coke or Pepsi? COKE
30. Do you have a crush? Hell yesssss
31. have you kissed or been kissed by someone in the past week? Dude, like for the past four hours
32. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? Proabably, but sometimes I dont take the time to stop and think about it
33. Do you think there's some models/people out there, that should gain a couple pounds?Heck yes
34. Do you wish you lived in NYC? Helllll noooooo
Friday, November 17, 2006
Me = Retarded
Anthony: If you happen to be reading / translating this, im sorry for tonight. I miss you. JTM
Why the fuck im I so retarded? I swear, my emotions are like a fucking roller coaster here. For 30 minutes, im hella happy, laughing with Anthony, kissing, talking..chillin in his room. And we leave to go to the foyer...and he says one thing I get hella hyphy. It always happens, me being fucking stupid and just screwing everything up. And then I start getting depressed, and start thinking of home and arg, it pisses me off.
So it goes like this. Tonight we were at the foyer, im all depressed and shit, I could start to see Anthony get argrivated, so I tell him Im leaving and that I can walk alone. But he doesnt like that either, and I just leave without reallying saying good bye, and whats even worse, im proabably not even going to see him tomorrow. So, I just fucked everything up. Fuck.. Im soooo in a shitty mood, and want to run and appologize, but I cant leave the fucking house cause its 11, and Im too afraid to call and try to appologize over the phone... and shit. I dont know what to do. Maybe I will just try to forget, and go cry in the comfort of my bed.
Shit, this hella sucks
Why the fuck im I so retarded? I swear, my emotions are like a fucking roller coaster here. For 30 minutes, im hella happy, laughing with Anthony, kissing, talking..chillin in his room. And we leave to go to the foyer...and he says one thing I get hella hyphy. It always happens, me being fucking stupid and just screwing everything up. And then I start getting depressed, and start thinking of home and arg, it pisses me off.
So it goes like this. Tonight we were at the foyer, im all depressed and shit, I could start to see Anthony get argrivated, so I tell him Im leaving and that I can walk alone. But he doesnt like that either, and I just leave without reallying saying good bye, and whats even worse, im proabably not even going to see him tomorrow. So, I just fucked everything up. Fuck.. Im soooo in a shitty mood, and want to run and appologize, but I cant leave the fucking house cause its 11, and Im too afraid to call and try to appologize over the phone... and shit. I dont know what to do. Maybe I will just try to forget, and go cry in the comfort of my bed.
Shit, this hella sucks
Two Pics Ya Never Saw
Lyuda, I emailed you! Check it! I was surprised to how quick I replied...weee, I rock, and sorry to those of you havent recieved a reply... if you shoot me a two word email, I garuntee you a reply, I just get sooo caught up, and only think about posting, cause you read. So... yeah.
Back to the point... Today was awesome, and I learned a new word! But in english, and thanks to lyuda. So, the new word is fornicate. Anyways, I went to school for three hours, spent an hour with Anthony, took the train home at around 12 or 12:30, and then ate lunch and went grocery shopping with Ceciles mom. Afterwards, I ate a snack, and like four small glasses of orange juice, and later more orange juice, and some hot choolate. But, while getting my cup, I dropped a glass on the floor while I was bare foot, and it shattered! *Gasp!* And then we cleaned up the mess and then I put on some flip flops, cause I hella dont want class in my feet, I fucking hate the doctor. Afterwards, I was pouring milk in my cup, and i missed and it went all over the counter! *Oh no!* And then.. finally I was drinking, and got chocolate on my plain white T.. *What has the world come to?!? * Gasp* It was
hella funny, and today I have been listening to this one french song over and over and over again. I like like love it. So, the story with the pic on the right. First of all, I do not know this guy, and second of all I lost his email address. Whoops, but proabably did this on purpose, knowing that meeting a guy on a plane, isnt the best way to make friends. Anyways, this pic was taken on plane from Germany to Paris, and one hour ride, and this kid was just coming back from New York (check his hat, its stylin). Anyways, he knew like no english, and I knew pracitcally no french compared to know, and it was hilarious. Especially when he tried flirting with me, and I was like what the fuck are you doing, and all the exchange students were looking at me. Hahahaha. So, tonight, im gonna go to Anthonys... and mmmmm. Thats all I have to say. In case you didnt know, this is where I have been putting all my pics, so there might be some more you havent seen.
http://www.jenndiesi.com/jm/index.php?option=com_gallery2&Itemid=28&g2_view=core.ShowItem&g2_itemId=4947
Its on my moms website... This weekend, or well tomorrow, I have my first soccer game...and its been a month since I played. Ha, lucky me, but its gonna suck ass, since im playing with a team thats my age and below....so basically im gonna smash, but next weekend its back to my regular team. Oh snap! Jesse, you were in my dream! So actually it wasnt you, but me talking on the phone with you. Kinda weird, so it went like this. My and Anthony took a plane to alameda, and we didnt know what to do, and apparently it was dark outside and I was like, let go see jesse!! So I showed up at your house, and there was a monster party going on, and I grabbed the house phone and called you, and you told me you werent there. But your parents or something said the part was fine. It was very interesting. Anyways, im out peace...
And I miss you alll sooooo fucking much.
Back to the point... Today was awesome, and I learned a new word! But in english, and thanks to lyuda. So, the new word is fornicate. Anyways, I went to school for three hours, spent an hour with Anthony, took the train home at around 12 or 12:30, and then ate lunch and went grocery shopping with Ceciles mom. Afterwards, I ate a snack, and like four small glasses of orange juice, and later more orange juice, and some hot choolate. But, while getting my cup, I dropped a glass on the floor while I was bare foot, and it shattered! *Gasp!* And then we cleaned up the mess and then I put on some flip flops, cause I hella dont want class in my feet, I fucking hate the doctor. Afterwards, I was pouring milk in my cup, and i missed and it went all over the counter! *Oh no!* And then.. finally I was drinking, and got chocolate on my plain white T.. *What has the world come to?!? * Gasp* It was
hella funny, and today I have been listening to this one french song over and over and over again. I like like love it. So, the story with the pic on the right. First of all, I do not know this guy, and second of all I lost his email address. Whoops, but proabably did this on purpose, knowing that meeting a guy on a plane, isnt the best way to make friends. Anyways, this pic was taken on plane from Germany to Paris, and one hour ride, and this kid was just coming back from New York (check his hat, its stylin). Anyways, he knew like no english, and I knew pracitcally no french compared to know, and it was hilarious. Especially when he tried flirting with me, and I was like what the fuck are you doing, and all the exchange students were looking at me. Hahahaha. So, tonight, im gonna go to Anthonys... and mmmmm. Thats all I have to say. In case you didnt know, this is where I have been putting all my pics, so there might be some more you havent seen.http://www.jenndiesi.com/jm/index.php?option=com_gallery2&Itemid=28&g2_view=core.ShowItem&g2_itemId=4947
Its on my moms website... This weekend, or well tomorrow, I have my first soccer game...and its been a month since I played. Ha, lucky me, but its gonna suck ass, since im playing with a team thats my age and below....so basically im gonna smash, but next weekend its back to my regular team. Oh snap! Jesse, you were in my dream! So actually it wasnt you, but me talking on the phone with you. Kinda weird, so it went like this. My and Anthony took a plane to alameda, and we didnt know what to do, and apparently it was dark outside and I was like, let go see jesse!! So I showed up at your house, and there was a monster party going on, and I grabbed the house phone and called you, and you told me you werent there. But your parents or something said the part was fine. It was very interesting. Anyways, im out peace...
And I miss you alll sooooo fucking much.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Long time no SEEEE
So, I havent posted in a while...ya know, been busy with life. Wow, and its true! I actually have a flourishing life, like...social life as well. ITs... interesting, and lovely.
So, I heard all about Sean Ryan, and how Dark and Sweet Meat alike got smashed. Like bananas when I make banana bread. SO sad, and you konw you all wish I was there...to lose and talk shit with you guys. Yes, that would be awesome. So anyways..
France.. its allright. You could say it goes, and that I had four hours for testing in french this morning. Lucky me, I actually thought I could do most of it, although it did take me almost the whole four hours, but the teacher was cool and gave me easy questions, and not that"Im a fluent french speaker test" bull shit. And afterwards I had two hours to chill, thank goodness. But I was a hoe, and didnt speak with Anthony, shit, im a freak, always parniod some girl is flirting with him... But I have trust.
Yesterday I was suppose to have soccer practice, but I lucked out and didnt cause there weren't enough girls that were going. And tomorrow Im gonna avoid going to Futsal as usual, and chill with my french hubbie, and friday I finish school at 11 ish, so its gonna be hella chill cause I take the train home, and can be alone! mwhahaha
Today was allright... But I talked with my grandpa for a few minutes, and then got the number of my grandmas work, and then called her. It was so amazing hearing her lovely lively voice, especially since I havent talked to her in forever, and she was so heappy that I called, especially at work which was unexpected. And while eating dinner my mom called me back, so I talked to her for a minute as well.
"Shes sayin come get me...so I got up and follwed her to the flow..she said baby lets go"
So, I heard all about Sean Ryan, and how Dark and Sweet Meat alike got smashed. Like bananas when I make banana bread. SO sad, and you konw you all wish I was there...to lose and talk shit with you guys. Yes, that would be awesome. So anyways..
France.. its allright. You could say it goes, and that I had four hours for testing in french this morning. Lucky me, I actually thought I could do most of it, although it did take me almost the whole four hours, but the teacher was cool and gave me easy questions, and not that"Im a fluent french speaker test" bull shit. And afterwards I had two hours to chill, thank goodness. But I was a hoe, and didnt speak with Anthony, shit, im a freak, always parniod some girl is flirting with him... But I have trust.
Yesterday I was suppose to have soccer practice, but I lucked out and didnt cause there weren't enough girls that were going. And tomorrow Im gonna avoid going to Futsal as usual, and chill with my french hubbie, and friday I finish school at 11 ish, so its gonna be hella chill cause I take the train home, and can be alone! mwhahaha
Today was allright... But I talked with my grandpa for a few minutes, and then got the number of my grandmas work, and then called her. It was so amazing hearing her lovely lively voice, especially since I havent talked to her in forever, and she was so heappy that I called, especially at work which was unexpected. And while eating dinner my mom called me back, so I talked to her for a minute as well.
"Shes sayin come get me...so I got up and follwed her to the flow..she said baby lets go"
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Waffles and Nutella
Its hella nice to have hella chill days. Especially after vacation.
Today I had the math test at 10, and I actually felt I could..make something come out of my head, like something usefull. It was pretty great, but this feeling is going to go away, I know it, when I get my test back. And I think I skipped over a problem. Oh well. After the test I had lunch in the city, and then I chilled with Anthony and Sarah at school..and I had three hours after my test to just chill before I had to go to French. It was awesome.
After school I rode home with Anthony (he has a license and a car, gooo him), but not before walking to the car parked like 5 blocks away...dang. And we spent like... an hour getting home, or somewhere around there cause of traffic, and a strike going on. It was hella chill... and it was great.
I dont know if I told you guys, but I went Ice skating, and it was hella fun. And after we went to Mc.Donalds... which is like totally different than here, and they dont have that many things you can choose from.. IT was weird. But anyways.. I heard you guts "ditched" jesse while heading to In and Out eh? Hahahaaha, Im not laughing at you jesse, but with you...
Lyuda.. write something new for me.
Miss you guys
Today I had the math test at 10, and I actually felt I could..make something come out of my head, like something usefull. It was pretty great, but this feeling is going to go away, I know it, when I get my test back. And I think I skipped over a problem. Oh well. After the test I had lunch in the city, and then I chilled with Anthony and Sarah at school..and I had three hours after my test to just chill before I had to go to French. It was awesome.
After school I rode home with Anthony (he has a license and a car, gooo him), but not before walking to the car parked like 5 blocks away...dang. And we spent like... an hour getting home, or somewhere around there cause of traffic, and a strike going on. It was hella chill... and it was great.
I dont know if I told you guys, but I went Ice skating, and it was hella fun. And after we went to Mc.Donalds... which is like totally different than here, and they dont have that many things you can choose from.. IT was weird. But anyways.. I heard you guts "ditched" jesse while heading to In and Out eh? Hahahaaha, Im not laughing at you jesse, but with you...
Lyuda.. write something new for me.
Miss you guys
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Yeesssss
Today was a good day, but I have a feeling its going to end badly. I had math first period, then this English class type thing, and then two hours of French, and then finally english at 12 oclock. During my classes I was kinda lonely, cause my usual friend wasnt there, so I just kinda sat there and day dreamed the whole time, instead of passing notes and giggling.
But.. my history teacher wasnt there, so I was done with all classes at like 1 oclock, and normally im done at like 4, so I had three hours to chill. I ate lunch in the city, and then played cards with this guy in my class for..a good amount of time. IT was hella chilll.. till the next epidsode. And tomorrow is gonna be chill I think, cause all I have is a test at 10 oclock, and then I chill for three hours, and then I have French, and I chill some more, and then go home. Weeeee. But It sucks cause I dont get to sleep...and im proabably going to bomb my math test. Oh well.
Tonight I start soccer practice again.. and I hella dont want to, but seriously, I really dont feel I have a choice, cause I think the parents here payed for it, even though I told them not to. Shit. But Im suupose to start futsal again on thursday after school, but im gonna be..not smart and avoid the teacher and hopefully chill with Anthony and friends. Yessss.
So, have a good Tuesday, and drink Tap X for me.
But.. my history teacher wasnt there, so I was done with all classes at like 1 oclock, and normally im done at like 4, so I had three hours to chill. I ate lunch in the city, and then played cards with this guy in my class for..a good amount of time. IT was hella chilll.. till the next epidsode. And tomorrow is gonna be chill I think, cause all I have is a test at 10 oclock, and then I chill for three hours, and then I have French, and I chill some more, and then go home. Weeeee. But It sucks cause I dont get to sleep...and im proabably going to bomb my math test. Oh well.
Tonight I start soccer practice again.. and I hella dont want to, but seriously, I really dont feel I have a choice, cause I think the parents here payed for it, even though I told them not to. Shit. But Im suupose to start futsal again on thursday after school, but im gonna be..not smart and avoid the teacher and hopefully chill with Anthony and friends. Yessss.
So, have a good Tuesday, and drink Tap X for me.
Monday, November 06, 2006
Meat Cleavers... What a Wonderful Phrase
Today was the first day back to school...after the vacation. And.. I dont wanna go back, I like just living in France and like totally not going to school. So there. And I.. I dont like my teacher... bar. I wanna chop his face off with a freaking MEAT CLEAVER.
So today I bought a journal, so I can start to write to myself, and not just to you guys, and Ive already written four pages just about my journey, and my feelings about today. And then I had a little dispute / argument / discussion with Céciles mom. It was about eating habits, and after reading one of lyuda's blogs... hehe, I just couldnt help myself. But anyways... Ceciles mom is very big on eating meat, and I kinda told her that I didnt eat meat. I thought it was cause of nutritional value like protein and shit, but like seriously I dont eat a lot of vegatables over here. And anyways.... she didnt like what I was saying, but whatever, I really dont care. And then she said I was being obsinate, and it freaking pissed me off, along with the fact that my jeans arent dry for tomorrow, which is really quite dumb of me but whatever. And I havent memorized my french homework, and... all of this nonsense along with Anthony not seeming too interested in me when I walked past him in the hall to go to class, and hardly seeing him at all today, and tomorrow will be the same, and waking up with a hella bad headache... Just made my day kind shit. And that fuckin ass SVT teacher, fuck. Like I said, with a Meat Cleaver, most of my problems could be solved.
THE END
So today I bought a journal, so I can start to write to myself, and not just to you guys, and Ive already written four pages just about my journey, and my feelings about today. And then I had a little dispute / argument / discussion with Céciles mom. It was about eating habits, and after reading one of lyuda's blogs... hehe, I just couldnt help myself. But anyways... Ceciles mom is very big on eating meat, and I kinda told her that I didnt eat meat. I thought it was cause of nutritional value like protein and shit, but like seriously I dont eat a lot of vegatables over here. And anyways.... she didnt like what I was saying, but whatever, I really dont care. And then she said I was being obsinate, and it freaking pissed me off, along with the fact that my jeans arent dry for tomorrow, which is really quite dumb of me but whatever. And I havent memorized my french homework, and... all of this nonsense along with Anthony not seeming too interested in me when I walked past him in the hall to go to class, and hardly seeing him at all today, and tomorrow will be the same, and waking up with a hella bad headache... Just made my day kind shit. And that fuckin ass SVT teacher, fuck. Like I said, with a Meat Cleaver, most of my problems could be solved.
THE END
Sunday, November 05, 2006
JTM
I need to get my head in the game. Shyt son.
This whole vacation... I just sorta wasted in a way. I thought I would at least attempt my homework, try and get ahead, and learn hella french. But seriously... I have spent the week and a half just sitting around, going shopping, hanging with friends, and not thinking about anything. (Let me tell you, it was heelllaaaa fun) Its kinda funny in a way... Jesse and I were sending emails back and forth, and he gave me some good advice; Im here in france for the culture and the language, its something I will remember. I took it a little too seriously, and now I've dug my self a litlle hole.
For my french class I think I had to memorize a poem or something. I mean, thats the only thing I really had to do... Okay, so heres my dillemma. Im thinking this is the only thing I needed to do during the vacation, and I couldnt even do it. But then I think, its like the stupidest thing ever, and my french teacher is...shit. Cause seriously, I already had to memorize two poems. So tomorrow I have french... and I am sooo not looking forward to it. Oh well. I really dont care.
Et maintenant, M. Vincent a dit c'est importante pour moi parler français. D'accord? Okay, that was weird... Ceciles dad just came over and was like you need to write french, yadda yadda. Right... Like seriously... No.
Anyways. Last night I had dinner at Anthony's, and then we chilled with some people at the foyer. And I got home around midnight, and then I slept till 11:30 this morning, and totally forgot that I was going to go running with Cécile. And then I took a shower, had lunch, and then played this game called "Jungle Speed". Its hella coooool. And afterwards me and cécile went to Anthonys, and layed around, and then cécile left.....and it was just me and Anthony, and we chilled hard core.
I soo do not want to go to school tomorrow. Its like... nooooo. . .. "The World is Coming to an End, and My Life is Spiriling Down a Black Abyss" okay, so its not true, cause im in france, but I think you get the point that its suppose to be extremely dramatic. So in a way this is the end, the end of vacation, and the start of something new. But not really.
Peace and Love,
And I miss my mommy : (
This whole vacation... I just sorta wasted in a way. I thought I would at least attempt my homework, try and get ahead, and learn hella french. But seriously... I have spent the week and a half just sitting around, going shopping, hanging with friends, and not thinking about anything. (Let me tell you, it was heelllaaaa fun) Its kinda funny in a way... Jesse and I were sending emails back and forth, and he gave me some good advice; Im here in france for the culture and the language, its something I will remember. I took it a little too seriously, and now I've dug my self a litlle hole.
For my french class I think I had to memorize a poem or something. I mean, thats the only thing I really had to do... Okay, so heres my dillemma. Im thinking this is the only thing I needed to do during the vacation, and I couldnt even do it. But then I think, its like the stupidest thing ever, and my french teacher is...shit. Cause seriously, I already had to memorize two poems. So tomorrow I have french... and I am sooo not looking forward to it. Oh well. I really dont care.
Et maintenant, M. Vincent a dit c'est importante pour moi parler français. D'accord? Okay, that was weird... Ceciles dad just came over and was like you need to write french, yadda yadda. Right... Like seriously... No.
Anyways. Last night I had dinner at Anthony's, and then we chilled with some people at the foyer. And I got home around midnight, and then I slept till 11:30 this morning, and totally forgot that I was going to go running with Cécile. And then I took a shower, had lunch, and then played this game called "Jungle Speed". Its hella coooool. And afterwards me and cécile went to Anthonys, and layed around, and then cécile left.....and it was just me and Anthony, and we chilled hard core.
I soo do not want to go to school tomorrow. Its like... nooooo. . .. "The World is Coming to an End, and My Life is Spiriling Down a Black Abyss" okay, so its not true, cause im in france, but I think you get the point that its suppose to be extremely dramatic. So in a way this is the end, the end of vacation, and the start of something new. But not really.
Peace and Love,
And I miss my mommy : (
Whoopss....
So, I kinda screwed myself over. I dont know how it happened, I think I did it accidentally, but I gave some of these french people the link to my blog, and without realizing that they might actually wanna read it. And actually can... So thinking I can write hella personal shit on this blog about france, or about the people here, is almost complete nonsense. Especially since Ceciles sister even reads it... What have I gotten myself into?
Oh well, its my thoughts. . .
Oh well, its my thoughts. . .
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Lost In Translation
Sometimes I feel hella lost, like.. I cant speak french, so why try? Its a feeling I get many nights.. But I know I gotta pull myself together, and tomorrow will be a better day. Fa Sho. And Me and Cecile are hella cool, way cooler than the other side of the pillow.
Yesterday...I think I just chilled, and didnt do anything be be hella lazy. Oh yeah..I went to Anthony's.... and.. mmhmmm. And today im just chillin, and thinking about what a bad kid I am for procractinating WAY too much on my homework. Its hella funny cause when I procrastinate, I dont think about homework for hella long, like a week will go by, and then I realize I didnt do something, and im like shit, and its all I think about, and seriously, I dreamt about my freaking homework two nights ago. Its incredibly annoying. So do your homework ACLC buddies... cause if you dont.. you will dream about it! And you know how you dont want Maafi at school, and in your dreams. That would be some scary shit.
Yesterday...I think I just chilled, and didnt do anything be be hella lazy. Oh yeah..I went to Anthony's.... and.. mmhmmm. And today im just chillin, and thinking about what a bad kid I am for procractinating WAY too much on my homework. Its hella funny cause when I procrastinate, I dont think about homework for hella long, like a week will go by, and then I realize I didnt do something, and im like shit, and its all I think about, and seriously, I dreamt about my freaking homework two nights ago. Its incredibly annoying. So do your homework ACLC buddies... cause if you dont.. you will dream about it! And you know how you dont want Maafi at school, and in your dreams. That would be some scary shit.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
...skin is sooo smooth....
I can tell you all the digusting things I’ve eaten and seen.. Oh man, they make me try everything I havent had before. I want to lie, and I dont want to try, but hey…thats what Im here for, eh? In case you didnt know, I had to eat: Rabbit Paté (sp), some other kind of paté, and yesterday I had the tongue of an anyomous “beef”, although im pretty sure it was Cow. And today while at some grand store, kinda like a walmart (a mix between food and..things other than food), I saw the word CHEVAL (horse), and under it a bunch of red meat. I think I started squealing and grabbed ceciles moms arm and was like ”people eat horse?“ She said that she doesnt, and wont ever cook, but yeah, people eat horse. Bleck. Ha, and I ate a chicken that ceciles grandmother killed herself, and cooked. And it was hella good, I aint gonna lie.
The first day of every November, the people here go to mess, and then go to the cementary to remeber the dead. It was kinda sad in a way… seeing like three of their family members..in the ground. But I thought it was really neat, like they have a day picked for visiting, and their bodies or at least gravestones are buried so close, that you can just go whenever you want. Like seriously, I was so thrilled there was a graveyard 5 blocks away, although it is chilling, that we should just go and walk down there sometime. After the graveyard buisness, I didnt go to the mess, we had lunch at ceciles grandparents with about 15 other people. And after that I went to Anthonys and just chilled for two hours. Sersiouly, big family lunchs and dinners will wear you out..just sitting at a table for 2 and a half hours… sooooo long and borning.
Today I went shopping, and bought a jacket and a shirt/sweater type thingy. Its becoming the start of winter, and this morning I pulled some ice of the grass. Okay, so maybe it was frost, but hey.. It was really cold outside, and seeing frost was super cool. Earlier this evening I went to the chiropractor. I really didnt want to go, but these frenchies make me god damnit. Anyways, it was alright, it was a women and she kind messaged my leg, it felt good, and now I can start to play soccer agina… not that I want to or anything…but you know.. I dont wanna get super fat. Hahahahaha. And Earlier today I took a walk in my jacket, and then...hung out with Anthony at his house, and then went grociery shopping and bought shampoo and a pomegranate, so I can get these frenchies a little bit more…into the swing of cool things.
My vacation has been fabuloso, but its slowly coming to an end. Tomorrow I think I might just hang out and chill, proabably work on some forgotten homework, and vacuum / pick up my room. Saturday… Im going to hang out with some friends, and Sunday who knows what..proabably eat the last box of thai food my mom sent me.
The first day of every November, the people here go to mess, and then go to the cementary to remeber the dead. It was kinda sad in a way… seeing like three of their family members..in the ground. But I thought it was really neat, like they have a day picked for visiting, and their bodies or at least gravestones are buried so close, that you can just go whenever you want. Like seriously, I was so thrilled there was a graveyard 5 blocks away, although it is chilling, that we should just go and walk down there sometime. After the graveyard buisness, I didnt go to the mess, we had lunch at ceciles grandparents with about 15 other people. And after that I went to Anthonys and just chilled for two hours. Sersiouly, big family lunchs and dinners will wear you out..just sitting at a table for 2 and a half hours… sooooo long and borning.
Today I went shopping, and bought a jacket and a shirt/sweater type thingy. Its becoming the start of winter, and this morning I pulled some ice of the grass. Okay, so maybe it was frost, but hey.. It was really cold outside, and seeing frost was super cool. Earlier this evening I went to the chiropractor. I really didnt want to go, but these frenchies make me god damnit. Anyways, it was alright, it was a women and she kind messaged my leg, it felt good, and now I can start to play soccer agina… not that I want to or anything…but you know.. I dont wanna get super fat. Hahahahaha. And Earlier today I took a walk in my jacket, and then...hung out with Anthony at his house, and then went grociery shopping and bought shampoo and a pomegranate, so I can get these frenchies a little bit more…into the swing of cool things.
My vacation has been fabuloso, but its slowly coming to an end. Tomorrow I think I might just hang out and chill, proabably work on some forgotten homework, and vacuum / pick up my room. Saturday… Im going to hang out with some friends, and Sunday who knows what..proabably eat the last box of thai food my mom sent me.
Monday, October 30, 2006
Monday Morning...
So its Monday Morning... lucky me I got to sleep in cause im on vacation. WeeeEE. Dang, this weekend flew by, I can hardly remember what I did.
Wednesday - Friday Cecile and I spent the night at her sisters apartement type thingy. And we went shopping in this town called "Fleche", and I bought a pair of jeans and two shirts... And friday night I went around the city with little kids. Saturday.. I hung out, watched a basket ball game, and then ate dinner with some kids from Etriche, and we watched a movie. And yesterday... I went to a public pool. Seriously, I never realized how disgusting pools are. I mean... there were hella ass people, and the water just felt sooo icky on my skin, I was like.. freaking out. After swimming, we had lunch at a friends house, went to the foyer, and then to Anthonys house to watch into the blue. Hahaha, for all those stupid french kids who try to make me watch movies in french, I got to watch it in english!!! Yay.
Soo.... Ive started to realize sometimes why my mom gets angry about certain things like...me telling her a day before, or in some cases I told her just hours before I had planned to do something. Cecile.. oh god. She does this to me everyday I swear, and its really starting to piss me off. "Par example": Last night at like 10:30, she came up to me and told me we were spending the night at her friends house tonight, and that tomorrow we would be going to Angers for the day. Okay, first of all... Tonight is less than 24 hours away, and second of all, Marion is your friend, not nessciarily mine. Ha, and not only that, she tells me this yesterday, and then today she hasnt even called Marion to confirm, so its not even set in stone. Im like.. how am I suppose to know what we are doing, if you dont tell me? Whetever, but I think shes getting better, cause the last last time she did this, I got hella pissed off and was like "How come I didnt freaking know?!?". And she was like, oops I thought I told you, and then appologized until I had an ok look on my face... lol.
Wednesday - Friday Cecile and I spent the night at her sisters apartement type thingy. And we went shopping in this town called "Fleche", and I bought a pair of jeans and two shirts... And friday night I went around the city with little kids. Saturday.. I hung out, watched a basket ball game, and then ate dinner with some kids from Etriche, and we watched a movie. And yesterday... I went to a public pool. Seriously, I never realized how disgusting pools are. I mean... there were hella ass people, and the water just felt sooo icky on my skin, I was like.. freaking out. After swimming, we had lunch at a friends house, went to the foyer, and then to Anthonys house to watch into the blue. Hahaha, for all those stupid french kids who try to make me watch movies in french, I got to watch it in english!!! Yay.
Soo.... Ive started to realize sometimes why my mom gets angry about certain things like...me telling her a day before, or in some cases I told her just hours before I had planned to do something. Cecile.. oh god. She does this to me everyday I swear, and its really starting to piss me off. "Par example": Last night at like 10:30, she came up to me and told me we were spending the night at her friends house tonight, and that tomorrow we would be going to Angers for the day. Okay, first of all... Tonight is less than 24 hours away, and second of all, Marion is your friend, not nessciarily mine. Ha, and not only that, she tells me this yesterday, and then today she hasnt even called Marion to confirm, so its not even set in stone. Im like.. how am I suppose to know what we are doing, if you dont tell me? Whetever, but I think shes getting better, cause the last last time she did this, I got hella pissed off and was like "How come I didnt freaking know?!?". And she was like, oops I thought I told you, and then appologized until I had an ok look on my face... lol.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
But...
Besides for Monday...
I chilled with some friends on Friday, Saturday went to the library and "post office". Etriche is incredibly small, and I actually thought they had a post office, but they actually have a little convinence store, with like....a small pedastool thing that they call the post office. They will send your letters... but not a small box. Saturday night I had this thing called Raclette or something hella good. ITs like.. melted cheese and stuff..mmmm....
Since I was home alone Sunday, Anthony came over and we watched Big Fish and Les Choristes, and then he left and I had lunch with Céciles dad, and then I went to the Foyer with Anythony.. we chilled, played pool, and then watched Shrek 2. Dang, three movies in one day, it was crazy. After that I watched like half of a basket ball game.. then went home and did some homework, and ate hella good crepes. Oh my, they are the best. Bah, I still have homework....
Hey hey hey, my mom bought me this vonage thingy, so when I get it here, I can use the internet to make calls, and then its hella cheap, and I have an alamed voicemail box, so be expecting more calls...hehe.. Especially since I have vaction tomorrow for a week and a half. Mwhahahahaha, cause my school is cool liek that. (but really its not). And Friday.... Im going with Anthony and some others to take kids around the city for Haloween. weEe.
Hope Hannah Camp was fun..
And I miss you all.....
I chilled with some friends on Friday, Saturday went to the library and "post office". Etriche is incredibly small, and I actually thought they had a post office, but they actually have a little convinence store, with like....a small pedastool thing that they call the post office. They will send your letters... but not a small box. Saturday night I had this thing called Raclette or something hella good. ITs like.. melted cheese and stuff..mmmm....
Since I was home alone Sunday, Anthony came over and we watched Big Fish and Les Choristes, and then he left and I had lunch with Céciles dad, and then I went to the Foyer with Anythony.. we chilled, played pool, and then watched Shrek 2. Dang, three movies in one day, it was crazy. After that I watched like half of a basket ball game.. then went home and did some homework, and ate hella good crepes. Oh my, they are the best. Bah, I still have homework....
Hey hey hey, my mom bought me this vonage thingy, so when I get it here, I can use the internet to make calls, and then its hella cheap, and I have an alamed voicemail box, so be expecting more calls...hehe.. Especially since I have vaction tomorrow for a week and a half. Mwhahahahaha, cause my school is cool liek that. (but really its not). And Friday.... Im going with Anthony and some others to take kids around the city for Haloween. weEe.
Hope Hannah Camp was fun..
And I miss you all.....
Monday, October 23, 2006
Fuck this shit
I dont know what to say. I dont know what to tell you guys..
Im not feeling it right now..
I called my grandpa.. cause its his birthday. He seemed kind.. blah. Not all that great. I was like, hey its your birthday....wee. I thought it might be because he was getting old.. not in that good of a mood. Hes not that old, seriously.. but we talked for a few minutes.. and then I asked if grandma was there.. knowing I would proabably get a no cause she works during the day, unlike my grandpa who works at night. I got have the answer I was expecting, she wasnt at home...but in the miraculous place called the FUCKING HOSPITAL.
What kind of fucking shit is this anyways? I move to california, and during seventh grade, she ends up in the hospital. Me thinking its no so serious at the time, doesnt worry, but instead I was on a plane to texas within the next two hours. Now here in France, 3ish years later, im thinking I was a little lucky compared to now...california is relatively close. FUCK this shit, I always have shitty feelings about going so far away, and finally when I convince myself nothing is going to happen, something like this goes and pisses the hell out of me.
Haha, I got off the phone a few minutes later, with the excuse I didnt have that many minutes, I didnt lie, and then went and cried for like... 20 minutes until cecile finally heard me...fucking thin ass door. Fuck... And now all of you fools are off at Hannah Camp, and I alomost wish I could play ultimate to take out my anger ,or just cry on one of you guys right now.. Cause im starting to cry, and I cant see the keys on the board.. so I will stop here....
Im not feeling it right now..
I called my grandpa.. cause its his birthday. He seemed kind.. blah. Not all that great. I was like, hey its your birthday....wee. I thought it might be because he was getting old.. not in that good of a mood. Hes not that old, seriously.. but we talked for a few minutes.. and then I asked if grandma was there.. knowing I would proabably get a no cause she works during the day, unlike my grandpa who works at night. I got have the answer I was expecting, she wasnt at home...but in the miraculous place called the FUCKING HOSPITAL.
What kind of fucking shit is this anyways? I move to california, and during seventh grade, she ends up in the hospital. Me thinking its no so serious at the time, doesnt worry, but instead I was on a plane to texas within the next two hours. Now here in France, 3ish years later, im thinking I was a little lucky compared to now...california is relatively close. FUCK this shit, I always have shitty feelings about going so far away, and finally when I convince myself nothing is going to happen, something like this goes and pisses the hell out of me.
Haha, I got off the phone a few minutes later, with the excuse I didnt have that many minutes, I didnt lie, and then went and cried for like... 20 minutes until cecile finally heard me...fucking thin ass door. Fuck... And now all of you fools are off at Hannah Camp, and I alomost wish I could play ultimate to take out my anger ,or just cry on one of you guys right now.. Cause im starting to cry, and I cant see the keys on the board.. so I will stop here....
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
My Week / Weekend
My week / weekend was like the greatest...ever.
On wednesday I got a package from my mom, filled with miraculous goodies consisting of my graphing calculator, a shirt, some haloween stuff, chapstick, and two boxes of thai food, (which I ate sunday night). Friday night, I went with cecile to babysit her cousin, but then I left to go hang out with some friends right near by. While there I played pool with Anthony, and surprisingly managed to win... cause he knocked in the 8 ball like three times. Hes like a friggin pro, can get seven balls in a row. And I can ryhme like crazy.
Saturday I went with cecile to a friends house for some weird meeting, with six other people, im still not really sure what the meetings are, although Ive already been to two. And after that we went to a church to watch Emilien and two other guys practice their guitar playing for some church thing, and then I ate a cucumber out of someones garden, hehe, I felt like stealing one. And then I went to Ceciles basketball game where I hung out more with Anthony, and then after the game a bunch of friends went to ceciles for a "fete". We ate lots of pasta...and listened to Emilien and his two friends rock out on their electric guitars. It was incredibly loud, but they could play some cool songs. The guys left at midnight, and I went to bed, but got up and hour later to chill with ceciles friends outside, in the dark cool night. Like seven or eight guys lives right in Etriche, which is hella small, so they just walk on over. Sunday I slept in late, and thenwent with Ceicle and her family to one of her cousins house. We had an enormous yummy dinner with turkey and patatoes, and other stuff. And then we watched The Island dubbed in French. Its hella dumb, like dubbing movies, but whatever, all the french people watch movies dubbed.
That was my weekend, it was pretty freakin awesome getting a box from my mom, but im still waiting for my precious shoes to get here. Actually, the might come today if im lucky. But proabably not. Yesterday there was a fire alarm at my school, and it was exciting. But im not sure if it was fake or not.. I think something might have happened, but im not sure. And today I dotn have school until 2, so I slept in till 10:30, it was great. And later Im taking the train to Angers, and walking to school with Anthony. Life is good in France, and im listenin to some coolio Hip hop french music.
On wednesday I got a package from my mom, filled with miraculous goodies consisting of my graphing calculator, a shirt, some haloween stuff, chapstick, and two boxes of thai food, (which I ate sunday night). Friday night, I went with cecile to babysit her cousin, but then I left to go hang out with some friends right near by. While there I played pool with Anthony, and surprisingly managed to win... cause he knocked in the 8 ball like three times. Hes like a friggin pro, can get seven balls in a row. And I can ryhme like crazy.
Saturday I went with cecile to a friends house for some weird meeting, with six other people, im still not really sure what the meetings are, although Ive already been to two. And after that we went to a church to watch Emilien and two other guys practice their guitar playing for some church thing, and then I ate a cucumber out of someones garden, hehe, I felt like stealing one. And then I went to Ceciles basketball game where I hung out more with Anthony, and then after the game a bunch of friends went to ceciles for a "fete". We ate lots of pasta...and listened to Emilien and his two friends rock out on their electric guitars. It was incredibly loud, but they could play some cool songs. The guys left at midnight, and I went to bed, but got up and hour later to chill with ceciles friends outside, in the dark cool night. Like seven or eight guys lives right in Etriche, which is hella small, so they just walk on over. Sunday I slept in late, and thenwent with Ceicle and her family to one of her cousins house. We had an enormous yummy dinner with turkey and patatoes, and other stuff. And then we watched The Island dubbed in French. Its hella dumb, like dubbing movies, but whatever, all the french people watch movies dubbed.
That was my weekend, it was pretty freakin awesome getting a box from my mom, but im still waiting for my precious shoes to get here. Actually, the might come today if im lucky. But proabably not. Yesterday there was a fire alarm at my school, and it was exciting. But im not sure if it was fake or not.. I think something might have happened, but im not sure. And today I dotn have school until 2, so I slept in till 10:30, it was great. And later Im taking the train to Angers, and walking to school with Anthony. Life is good in France, and im listenin to some coolio Hip hop french music.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
....OUAIS.... .
Today Today...
I had an hour to chill, and then I had history, french, and a freakin english test. Yeah, your proabably thinking, oh, that should be easy loren! But... no. Its just vocab shit, and I have to translate 40 words from french to english, and I only knew like.. less than half. But I knew even less than that, some words are just hella similar... After that, I had lunch in the city with cécile, and then.. two hours of that crap ass class TPE were I just chill, and do research... And talk to my brazilian friend in english, totally rocks.
After that, I had three more hours to kill before heading home, so Anthony and another friend, his names Samuel, and I walked to a DMV place, and then just chillled. The guys wanted to go to a bar, and was like...why? So they like to drink, and I was like that bar..it was deserted, and I hella didnt think I was allowed to go inside, or just afraid someone would be like your not old enough! I hate confrontation, but eh. They both got this drink with like lemonade straberry grenidy, and beer. Quite good actually...but I didnt drink, just tried.
Tomorrow is gonna rock. I dont think I have class in the morning, then just two hours of history and..french, another free hour, lunch, then three hours of class, and I get out at 4h20. Which is goooooodddd. Haha, lucky punks, get out at 3, baaahh. At least im in FRANCE. So there. Oh god, im like talking to myself to boost my self esteem, how lovely.
So... did anyone actually go and drink tap x for me?
I had an hour to chill, and then I had history, french, and a freakin english test. Yeah, your proabably thinking, oh, that should be easy loren! But... no. Its just vocab shit, and I have to translate 40 words from french to english, and I only knew like.. less than half. But I knew even less than that, some words are just hella similar... After that, I had lunch in the city with cécile, and then.. two hours of that crap ass class TPE were I just chill, and do research... And talk to my brazilian friend in english, totally rocks.
After that, I had three more hours to kill before heading home, so Anthony and another friend, his names Samuel, and I walked to a DMV place, and then just chillled. The guys wanted to go to a bar, and was like...why? So they like to drink, and I was like that bar..it was deserted, and I hella didnt think I was allowed to go inside, or just afraid someone would be like your not old enough! I hate confrontation, but eh. They both got this drink with like lemonade straberry grenidy, and beer. Quite good actually...but I didnt drink, just tried.
Tomorrow is gonna rock. I dont think I have class in the morning, then just two hours of history and..french, another free hour, lunch, then three hours of class, and I get out at 4h20. Which is goooooodddd. Haha, lucky punks, get out at 3, baaahh. At least im in FRANCE. So there. Oh god, im like talking to myself to boost my self esteem, how lovely.
So... did anyone actually go and drink tap x for me?
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
So Listen....
Could you guys get off my back about the whole cutting thing? I think ALL of you missed the line "wasnt really gonna cut myself or anything, im pretty sure I stopped that".
I mean seriously, I wanted to post it because its how I felt, but now im getting all these remarks and shit. I am fine, and under control, and thanks for all the love and shit, I know you mean well, but.. I can handle myself, and you guys showed me it was wrong when I was living in Cali.
I think this whole random depression thing is just part of the program, you know, I think im starting to hit culture shock, and at the time with the scissors, I wasnt even depressed, I was just thinking, and I wasnt going to do SHIT.
But really thanks for caring, but I am FINE.
(Yeah you know it)
I mean seriously, I wanted to post it because its how I felt, but now im getting all these remarks and shit. I am fine, and under control, and thanks for all the love and shit, I know you mean well, but.. I can handle myself, and you guys showed me it was wrong when I was living in Cali.
I think this whole random depression thing is just part of the program, you know, I think im starting to hit culture shock, and at the time with the scissors, I wasnt even depressed, I was just thinking, and I wasnt going to do SHIT.
But really thanks for caring, but I am FINE.
(Yeah you know it)
Monday, October 09, 2006
Tears...?
Maybe you could say the mornings are never terribly good, and well.. this morning was the worst. Only because I seriously did not want to go to school, I could have cared less and would have like to ditch, I was hella homesick, and wanted to be alone, but couldnt because it was pouring rain outside. Everymorning I get to school, sit at a table with cecile, usually some of her friends show up, like two or three, than Anthony arrives and we say hi, he goes to a different table, and then like seven more of ceciles friends come and crowd the table, including her boyfriend. Iono, I just feel so outta place sometimes with them, or hella random people, like... I try to say something, and they're just like whatever. And when cecile leaves, they dont talk to me all that much, so its fine, but I was hella depressed and shit, and even Anthony noticed and he was sitting all the way across the room. Anyways..I was hella depressed, and thats that. But.... I am semi-okay now.
Haha, about a week ago, I was helpin some guy with his english, but then I was just sitting there, and I starting playing with his scissors, and just thinking.. and didnt realize he was still there, and put the blade to my skin...wasnt really gonna cut myself or anything, im pretty sure I stopped that, but...he was like..wwwhhhoooaaaa. I was like nah nah nah, not me. It was....interesting, kindda like when I starting cutting myself in the center in front of Conner, hahaha. Anyways.. I guess my mood is kinda just blah.. I dont know if you can tell but.. who knows, im half sick and just not the greatest person right now.
Tommorrow I have classes in the morning, totally sucks, but then two free periods at the end of the day, which totally rocks, and im gonna spend it just chillin, relaxing, and havin fun. Wweee...
Peace, and Drink Tap X for me
Haha, about a week ago, I was helpin some guy with his english, but then I was just sitting there, and I starting playing with his scissors, and just thinking.. and didnt realize he was still there, and put the blade to my skin...wasnt really gonna cut myself or anything, im pretty sure I stopped that, but...he was like..wwwhhhoooaaaa. I was like nah nah nah, not me. It was....interesting, kindda like when I starting cutting myself in the center in front of Conner, hahaha. Anyways.. I guess my mood is kinda just blah.. I dont know if you can tell but.. who knows, im half sick and just not the greatest person right now.
Tommorrow I have classes in the morning, totally sucks, but then two free periods at the end of the day, which totally rocks, and im gonna spend it just chillin, relaxing, and havin fun. Wweee...
Peace, and Drink Tap X for me
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Samedi
Yesterday I watched céciles basket ball game, and then we headed over to the town of Chateauneuf for that get together with all these kids and such. And yesterday I had my camera with me.. so I took pics of people. Fa sho.
Emilien
Anthony and Marion
And today I watched a soccer game in Etriche with Anthony, and then Cécile, Anthony and me watched Gone in 60 Seconds with one of his friends. And now im at home, just chillin..listen to Limp Bizkit...
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Laundry and Smoking
So, I find the doing the laundry, and not smoking, is like really good. Here I do lots of laundry, well, not lots, but..a normal amount, especially on the weekends. The laundry goes into the maching, and then I get to hang it out on a clothes line for drying. Its pretty awesome, and makes me feel productive... The french people are really engery saving. Like, the whole house has tons of windows, and you never need to turn on a light until 7 o'cklock at night.
And I dont know if I told you guys this, but like.. theres this huge open section in the middle of the school, its outside, and theres actually like a smoking section for all the kids who smoke. Its kinda crazy, and when I found out about it..I was like whoa. And then I got use to all the kids smoking and shit, and then one time this guy named Axel was helping me with reading a Fable, hes 16, and he just pulled out Tabacco and started rolling a cigarette right in the school, inside. I was like uh...what are you doing? But its strange and odd, people just carry cigarretts around, and one of my good friends smoke, and like 5 people in my class do. Kinda bizarre... but.. interesting in a way, the whole different culture thing. But dont fret, mm'kay, I am not gonna smoke..like..eeew.
So, I just wanted to fill you in on the culture a little bit more...
And I dont know if I told you guys this, but like.. theres this huge open section in the middle of the school, its outside, and theres actually like a smoking section for all the kids who smoke. Its kinda crazy, and when I found out about it..I was like whoa. And then I got use to all the kids smoking and shit, and then one time this guy named Axel was helping me with reading a Fable, hes 16, and he just pulled out Tabacco and started rolling a cigarette right in the school, inside. I was like uh...what are you doing? But its strange and odd, people just carry cigarretts around, and one of my good friends smoke, and like 5 people in my class do. Kinda bizarre... but.. interesting in a way, the whole different culture thing. But dont fret, mm'kay, I am not gonna smoke..like..eeew.
So, I just wanted to fill you in on the culture a little bit more...
Friday, October 06, 2006
Another Hour.. Another Day
Today and yesterday... pretty decent days.
Lets see.. Yesterday I had three classes in the morning, then lunch in the city with Cecile and one of her friends, then this class called TPE for two hours. I dont really care for the TPE teachers that much, but the class is basically shit, like when I was at the Center taking L2L with Syl, I mean...seriously. After that I would have played Futsal for two hours, but with my leg and all, I just stayed at school looking for others to hang with, but they were all off doing things like sports or this thing called ¨comidie musical¨. So, I snuck over to Anthony (snuck because I hardly understand him, and hes older, standing with all his old friends, kinda awkward, but in the end not, cause he happens to be only a grade older), and I thought for a second, and then quickly asked him in french what he was gonna do for the next two hours. He said shopping, and no one was going with him, so I tagged along. We chilled, bought good food, and met up with one of his friends, and went looking at CDs and stuff...basically being homework free and just chillin in the city.
Last night I memorized more lines of this Fable, in the end memorizing 12 lines, but it fuckin pissed the hell out of me. This time and the last time I had to memoriwe a fable, I worked soo hard, and thought it was due the next week, when it was actually due that friday. I got soo angry, and only had to say 12 lines, but I wanted to prove sooo bad to those little frenchie kids that I could memorize it, and that I wasnt..dumb or that shit. But this morning I had three classes as well, a free period were I just chilled and read, talked to Anthony, then I had lunch, and then went to go watch this movie called Indegnes. Sadly though I couldnt find a pick on the web, but I told jesse it reminded me of Behind Enemy Lines and that movie Windtalkers. Hella exciting movie though...makes you jump, and four of the main characters die...kinda abburptly too. After that I had english, and helped all the french kids and shit.
Oh snap, I swear its soo weird when I dont do anything and I just sit and think. ITs like im somewhere else, and I have to convince myself that im in france. I just sit there and im like... where am I again? Am I really halfway across the map? Im like...I havent seen jesse or lyuda..or any of them.. Sometimes I dont miss home, and I just think ive lived here forever, and that California was just a dream, and just this morning I thought I was losing my mind because I was thinking I could be in a parrallel univers, and all of this really isnt France, I really didnt take a plane for nine hours, it just felt like it because we were crossing times, from one place to another, and the plane was just floating stagnant in a big blue space of nothing-ness. Crazy.. I know.
Tommorrow, im watchin ceciles basketball game, memorizing some vocab for english but for me im memorizing french, and meeting up with some kids and eating some free crepes. Its gonna be good....I hope. But poor Emilien got dumped by his girlfriend. . .were all gonna be doing some comforting for him. I hope life is good in Cali
Lets see.. Yesterday I had three classes in the morning, then lunch in the city with Cecile and one of her friends, then this class called TPE for two hours. I dont really care for the TPE teachers that much, but the class is basically shit, like when I was at the Center taking L2L with Syl, I mean...seriously. After that I would have played Futsal for two hours, but with my leg and all, I just stayed at school looking for others to hang with, but they were all off doing things like sports or this thing called ¨comidie musical¨. So, I snuck over to Anthony (snuck because I hardly understand him, and hes older, standing with all his old friends, kinda awkward, but in the end not, cause he happens to be only a grade older), and I thought for a second, and then quickly asked him in french what he was gonna do for the next two hours. He said shopping, and no one was going with him, so I tagged along. We chilled, bought good food, and met up with one of his friends, and went looking at CDs and stuff...basically being homework free and just chillin in the city.
Last night I memorized more lines of this Fable, in the end memorizing 12 lines, but it fuckin pissed the hell out of me. This time and the last time I had to memoriwe a fable, I worked soo hard, and thought it was due the next week, when it was actually due that friday. I got soo angry, and only had to say 12 lines, but I wanted to prove sooo bad to those little frenchie kids that I could memorize it, and that I wasnt..dumb or that shit. But this morning I had three classes as well, a free period were I just chilled and read, talked to Anthony, then I had lunch, and then went to go watch this movie called Indegnes. Sadly though I couldnt find a pick on the web, but I told jesse it reminded me of Behind Enemy Lines and that movie Windtalkers. Hella exciting movie though...makes you jump, and four of the main characters die...kinda abburptly too. After that I had english, and helped all the french kids and shit.
Oh snap, I swear its soo weird when I dont do anything and I just sit and think. ITs like im somewhere else, and I have to convince myself that im in france. I just sit there and im like... where am I again? Am I really halfway across the map? Im like...I havent seen jesse or lyuda..or any of them.. Sometimes I dont miss home, and I just think ive lived here forever, and that California was just a dream, and just this morning I thought I was losing my mind because I was thinking I could be in a parrallel univers, and all of this really isnt France, I really didnt take a plane for nine hours, it just felt like it because we were crossing times, from one place to another, and the plane was just floating stagnant in a big blue space of nothing-ness. Crazy.. I know.
Tommorrow, im watchin ceciles basketball game, memorizing some vocab for english but for me im memorizing french, and meeting up with some kids and eating some free crepes. Its gonna be good....I hope. But poor Emilien got dumped by his girlfriend. . .were all gonna be doing some comforting for him. I hope life is good in Cali
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
You could say...
That this is what France is all about. A beautiful back yard, far far away from home. I was looking at it this morning, sitting alone at the table, just pondering thoughts while looking at the back yard. Just looking, makes me happy.
So I got up and took a picture, so I could share it with you.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
So, La Dee Daa
Yesterday was like blah.
I had a class called SVT which should be called ¨we are going to disect something everyday¨, and my lab partner is this super cool guy named Thomas, and he always helps me and shit. He was talking to me while the teacher was talking, and the teacher looks at him, and starts talking really fast french so I cant understand, and Thomas gives quick replies, and I only caught a few words here and there...and then Thomas starts talking to Val, and im like what the hell.. Thomas finally tells me that the teacher said if he helps me, he cant succeed. What kind of bullshit is that? Basically I started pouting, and giving dirty looks to the teacher, and sat there without bothering to pick up my pen, to not make an effort, and piss off the teacher. I know he knew I was mad, whenever he looked at me he made sure I wasnt looking, and when I was he quickly glanced away. But whatever, screw that dumbass prof..
The past week I have been working on this one assignment, litterally I worked on it for 5-6 hours, trying to understand two fables and write about it, and only managed to write less than a third of what everyone else wrote. But hey, I tried..thats what counts. I also managed to fail my history and math test...wee. And math is super easy, it pisses me off, I just couldnt read the damn problems. Its like straight up algebra over here. But school overall is pretty cool, I have hella friends, and today Emilien and this guy named Clément helped me read a childrens book.
Im actually getting better at french, today I actually noticed an improvement, it was kinda weird...just all of a sudden being able to blurt out answers to questions people ask me in french. I was like..huh, and cecile started laughing, and im like whats so funny? Shes like, my dad talks really fast, and you manage to understand, you've improved soo much. Its pretty awesome...
My mood is good good, I have little homework, but shit.. I still have to do it. Im looking forward to saturday night, supposedly theres this get together with a bunch of people, like..Emilien, Fabien, and other peeps at a church, and I get to eat free crêpes. mmmmmmm. But no chinese food. And tomorrow, if I have really good luck I will catch Fabien in Etriche, or Angers before he leaves. I have to take the train to school wednesdays, totally rocks.
If you read this and I havent replied to your email... im sorry. I have too many emails to reply to..haha, what a lame excuse.
¨Mucho Grande Taco Supreme Amour from El France-O. ¨
I had a class called SVT which should be called ¨we are going to disect something everyday¨, and my lab partner is this super cool guy named Thomas, and he always helps me and shit. He was talking to me while the teacher was talking, and the teacher looks at him, and starts talking really fast french so I cant understand, and Thomas gives quick replies, and I only caught a few words here and there...and then Thomas starts talking to Val, and im like what the hell.. Thomas finally tells me that the teacher said if he helps me, he cant succeed. What kind of bullshit is that? Basically I started pouting, and giving dirty looks to the teacher, and sat there without bothering to pick up my pen, to not make an effort, and piss off the teacher. I know he knew I was mad, whenever he looked at me he made sure I wasnt looking, and when I was he quickly glanced away. But whatever, screw that dumbass prof..
The past week I have been working on this one assignment, litterally I worked on it for 5-6 hours, trying to understand two fables and write about it, and only managed to write less than a third of what everyone else wrote. But hey, I tried..thats what counts. I also managed to fail my history and math test...wee. And math is super easy, it pisses me off, I just couldnt read the damn problems. Its like straight up algebra over here. But school overall is pretty cool, I have hella friends, and today Emilien and this guy named Clément helped me read a childrens book.
Im actually getting better at french, today I actually noticed an improvement, it was kinda weird...just all of a sudden being able to blurt out answers to questions people ask me in french. I was like..huh, and cecile started laughing, and im like whats so funny? Shes like, my dad talks really fast, and you manage to understand, you've improved soo much. Its pretty awesome...
My mood is good good, I have little homework, but shit.. I still have to do it. Im looking forward to saturday night, supposedly theres this get together with a bunch of people, like..Emilien, Fabien, and other peeps at a church, and I get to eat free crêpes. mmmmmmm. But no chinese food. And tomorrow, if I have really good luck I will catch Fabien in Etriche, or Angers before he leaves. I have to take the train to school wednesdays, totally rocks.
If you read this and I havent replied to your email... im sorry. I have too many emails to reply to..haha, what a lame excuse.
¨Mucho Grande Taco Supreme Amour from El France-O. ¨
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Tourner La Bouteille
So this weekend was filled with lots of fun things....
Saturday morning I went to the Etriche library with Cecile. Oh man, its like the size of my living room, books are hella unorganized, and they supposedly have three in english, two of which are by Scott Fitzgerald or something, the guy who wrote The Great Gatsby. It was crazy, but I decided to get a little kids book (haha), and this book I was supposed to buy for my french class. Saturday evening around seven oclock we went to ceciles grandparents house for a get together / dinner with some family, around 20 people...the dinners are always crazy, and they eat for sooo long.
After dinner, around midnight Cecile and I walked to this guys Fabiens house. They call it a ¨fete¨ which supposedly means party. Hahaha, hella funny though. Okay, so there were around 8 guys there, all around the age of 15, hella roudy and wrestilin, and throwin shit. We all sat down on couches, chatting, and someones like, Fab, go get a bottle. So he brings back a bottle, and all the guys wanna play spin the bottle with themselves, and me and cecile. Its hella funny cause they would kiss each others faces and shit, and I made one guy lick another guys face. Soo.. hmmm.. I..uh.. got a hug! yes! it was great.. mmmhhmmm
We left around 1:30 or something...
Today I got up at 9:30, and walked with cecile to the soccer field, where we watched Fabien and all the guys play. We walked back to her house, had lunch, and then I went to watch her basket ball game. We stayed longer to watch another game..and then saw Fab and this asian kid, I forgot his name, but its cool cause there are like no asians around here, seriously. That was my weekend, and I procrastinated on homework, and...yeah.
Saturday morning I went to the Etriche library with Cecile. Oh man, its like the size of my living room, books are hella unorganized, and they supposedly have three in english, two of which are by Scott Fitzgerald or something, the guy who wrote The Great Gatsby. It was crazy, but I decided to get a little kids book (haha), and this book I was supposed to buy for my french class. Saturday evening around seven oclock we went to ceciles grandparents house for a get together / dinner with some family, around 20 people...the dinners are always crazy, and they eat for sooo long.
After dinner, around midnight Cecile and I walked to this guys Fabiens house. They call it a ¨fete¨ which supposedly means party. Hahaha, hella funny though. Okay, so there were around 8 guys there, all around the age of 15, hella roudy and wrestilin, and throwin shit. We all sat down on couches, chatting, and someones like, Fab, go get a bottle. So he brings back a bottle, and all the guys wanna play spin the bottle with themselves, and me and cecile. Its hella funny cause they would kiss each others faces and shit, and I made one guy lick another guys face. Soo.. hmmm.. I..uh.. got a hug! yes! it was great.. mmmhhmmm
We left around 1:30 or something...
Today I got up at 9:30, and walked with cecile to the soccer field, where we watched Fabien and all the guys play. We walked back to her house, had lunch, and then I went to watch her basket ball game. We stayed longer to watch another game..and then saw Fab and this asian kid, I forgot his name, but its cool cause there are like no asians around here, seriously. That was my weekend, and I procrastinated on homework, and...yeah.
Friday, September 29, 2006
A Blog is Like a Diary...
So I was thinking, no one really reads my blog, and im on it everyday, so why not actually try and use it like a diary? I mean, Im not really honest with myself most of the time, or sometimes I dont always reconize my feelings as I should... Why not use this blog to try and actually be open with myself and people with the little people who know I have a blog? Aha, my moral of the day.
Right now im litlle on the downside you could say, but today was a decently good day, I learned alot, and have been working extensively on translating and understanding some french litterature.
Right now im thinking about home and people, and wondering / having a feeling that its not going to be the same when I get back. I dont keep in touch with people I want, maybe its because I feel that I need to..feel like im french, and this is my new life. But sometimes I think I dont write back right away, dont keep in touch at all, or if I think of someone... I just know its not going to be the same when I return, so why bother? Shit, thats what I really think..and I know its something I shouldnt think, but.. I guess I just gotta let things go..ya feel? I dont know what to think anymore. All I know is that im in France, and 10 months is a long time, and thats that.
So this is me trying to be insightful for once, trying to think things through, and I think I have, its just not the anwser I want. But mabye the answer I need.
P.S. Disregard that last bulletin, I was..distraught.
Right now im litlle on the downside you could say, but today was a decently good day, I learned alot, and have been working extensively on translating and understanding some french litterature.
Right now im thinking about home and people, and wondering / having a feeling that its not going to be the same when I get back. I dont keep in touch with people I want, maybe its because I feel that I need to..feel like im french, and this is my new life. But sometimes I think I dont write back right away, dont keep in touch at all, or if I think of someone... I just know its not going to be the same when I return, so why bother? Shit, thats what I really think..and I know its something I shouldnt think, but.. I guess I just gotta let things go..ya feel? I dont know what to think anymore. All I know is that im in France, and 10 months is a long time, and thats that.
So this is me trying to be insightful for once, trying to think things through, and I think I have, its just not the anwser I want. But mabye the answer I need.
P.S. Disregard that last bulletin, I was..distraught.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Emotions
Just so were on the same page, I created this blog to express my emotions.
And right now I feel like FUCKING shit. But this shitty ass salsa music makes my fucking brain release endorphins... fuck.
I wish I had a cookie, and its off to bed for me.
And right now I feel like FUCKING shit. But this shitty ass salsa music makes my fucking brain release endorphins... fuck.
I wish I had a cookie, and its off to bed for me.
Fucking Hamstring
Right now im at school, in the library, being hella paranoid that I'll get caught blogging. My mood is so-so, my day was so-so.
So yesterday after school I had a meeting with my home room teacher, math teacher, and my host mom to talk about how im doing and shit. They said that they could see I have progressed and stuff, but the french teacher said I should try speaking in class. Ya see I would and all.. If I knew what the hell she was saying. Dang, how am I suppose to try and answer the question, if I dont know what it is, and dont even have the slightest idea about what shes talking about?
My host parents are kinda getting on my nerve as well... So I pulled my hamstring, and I was suppose to get one of those ACE bandages yesterday, but my host mom was like no, we will wait till you see the doctor. And Im like, why am I seeing the doctor again? And she told me I needed a note so I wouldnt have to do PE and shit...cause seriously I hate the doctor, hes hella crazy, but apparently these french people rely on the doctors hella.
So Im like allright, I will see the doctor to get the note, fine fine. So then yesterday night, I was talking to my host dad, and hes like yeah, your going to the doctor tomorrow. Im like..mmhmm, great, sure, whatever. And hes like, hopefully he will do you well, the doctor is great, and you should be able to play on Sunday! Im like...wait wait wait..sunday? Seriously..I am soooo not playing. Hell no, it will not heal that fast, and I am soo not risking it. I think Ceciles dad just wants the best though, and he really loves soccer, so he proabably wants to watch or something.
So for all of you alamedians, remember kids, the doctors are crazy, the people are crazy, and make sure you know what your getting yourself into. I think thats my moral for the day, and I really hope soccer is only one season.
Miss you all..
And Tap X...
Toomies...
Ultimate...etc.
So yesterday after school I had a meeting with my home room teacher, math teacher, and my host mom to talk about how im doing and shit. They said that they could see I have progressed and stuff, but the french teacher said I should try speaking in class. Ya see I would and all.. If I knew what the hell she was saying. Dang, how am I suppose to try and answer the question, if I dont know what it is, and dont even have the slightest idea about what shes talking about?
My host parents are kinda getting on my nerve as well... So I pulled my hamstring, and I was suppose to get one of those ACE bandages yesterday, but my host mom was like no, we will wait till you see the doctor. And Im like, why am I seeing the doctor again? And she told me I needed a note so I wouldnt have to do PE and shit...cause seriously I hate the doctor, hes hella crazy, but apparently these french people rely on the doctors hella.
So Im like allright, I will see the doctor to get the note, fine fine. So then yesterday night, I was talking to my host dad, and hes like yeah, your going to the doctor tomorrow. Im like..mmhmm, great, sure, whatever. And hes like, hopefully he will do you well, the doctor is great, and you should be able to play on Sunday! Im like...wait wait wait..sunday? Seriously..I am soooo not playing. Hell no, it will not heal that fast, and I am soo not risking it. I think Ceciles dad just wants the best though, and he really loves soccer, so he proabably wants to watch or something.
So for all of you alamedians, remember kids, the doctors are crazy, the people are crazy, and make sure you know what your getting yourself into. I think thats my moral for the day, and I really hope soccer is only one season.
Miss you all..
And Tap X...
Toomies...
Ultimate...etc.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Yesterday some crazy shit went down.
So first I had to get my lazy ass up at the crack of dawn (6:30), eat breakfast with the family and then take the long car ride to school. I actually had class first thing in the morning, and then french, english, and then lunch. At lunch I ate at school, and then me and two friends walked to the city, where we met our other classmates / friends. But.. I wasnt in a good mood so I went in this three story sports store building, and just cruised around.
After all my classes, I went back to the city with one of my friends, and we scrounged for change and bought some chips and an orangina. She didnt tell me this until like two minutes before we were heading back to school, that we werent really heading back at all, but meeting up with her ex. I was soo like wtf...then he showed up, we walked aroud, and then I ditched trying to find my way back to school, and almost got lost. Haha.
I got back to school which was around four o'clock, and sat down at a table. There was this really hot guy sitting at the table in front of me...he must have knew I wanted to talk to him, so he turned around and said ¨Whats your nationality?¨In english, and then I was like...american. And hes like ¨ah¨. A few minutes later he turned around again and then started speaking in french to me...confirming that I was a Premiere L, type of student I am, meaning im a junior and that I take language type classes and shit. And then he asked me if it was difficult and crap.. but I never got his name. Thats my mission for today, if im not a freakin chicken.
As I was sitting at the table alone, some of Ceciles friends came over and started chatting with me. I only really know two of guys that sat down, Emilien and Yohann. Later Cecile finished with her class and came to wait with us until her dad came to pick us up. I pulled some changed out of my pocket and bummed ten cents from a kid, and went to buy a cup of hot chocolate from this machine across the room (im actually an addict, drink about three a day, they are sooo good and cheap.) As I was walking back to the table, I stopped to talk to Emilien who was looking at soome papers stapled to the wall. We turned around and walked towards the table and he knocked my hand and I dropped the cup all over the floor, and on Emilien. It was pretty hilarious. Except for the part whereI had to clean it up, and Cecile or Emilien wouldnt help me.
After school I had soccer practice which is normally pretty fun, the girls are super nice. But as I was running and shit, I sorta pulled my hamstring..again. But its not like pulled pulled, just pulled, if that means anything. But It gets me out of soccer for a while, and I can just chill...Till the next episode.
Look Lyuda, I started a blogger...
So first I had to get my lazy ass up at the crack of dawn (6:30), eat breakfast with the family and then take the long car ride to school. I actually had class first thing in the morning, and then french, english, and then lunch. At lunch I ate at school, and then me and two friends walked to the city, where we met our other classmates / friends. But.. I wasnt in a good mood so I went in this three story sports store building, and just cruised around.
After all my classes, I went back to the city with one of my friends, and we scrounged for change and bought some chips and an orangina. She didnt tell me this until like two minutes before we were heading back to school, that we werent really heading back at all, but meeting up with her ex. I was soo like wtf...then he showed up, we walked aroud, and then I ditched trying to find my way back to school, and almost got lost. Haha.
I got back to school which was around four o'clock, and sat down at a table. There was this really hot guy sitting at the table in front of me...he must have knew I wanted to talk to him, so he turned around and said ¨Whats your nationality?¨In english, and then I was like...american. And hes like ¨ah¨. A few minutes later he turned around again and then started speaking in french to me...confirming that I was a Premiere L, type of student I am, meaning im a junior and that I take language type classes and shit. And then he asked me if it was difficult and crap.. but I never got his name. Thats my mission for today, if im not a freakin chicken.
As I was sitting at the table alone, some of Ceciles friends came over and started chatting with me. I only really know two of guys that sat down, Emilien and Yohann. Later Cecile finished with her class and came to wait with us until her dad came to pick us up. I pulled some changed out of my pocket and bummed ten cents from a kid, and went to buy a cup of hot chocolate from this machine across the room (im actually an addict, drink about three a day, they are sooo good and cheap.) As I was walking back to the table, I stopped to talk to Emilien who was looking at soome papers stapled to the wall. We turned around and walked towards the table and he knocked my hand and I dropped the cup all over the floor, and on Emilien. It was pretty hilarious. Except for the part whereI had to clean it up, and Cecile or Emilien wouldnt help me.
After school I had soccer practice which is normally pretty fun, the girls are super nice. But as I was running and shit, I sorta pulled my hamstring..again. But its not like pulled pulled, just pulled, if that means anything. But It gets me out of soccer for a while, and I can just chill...Till the next episode.
Look Lyuda, I started a blogger...
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