Me = Retarded

Anthony: If you happen to be reading / translating this, im sorry for tonight. I miss you. JTM

Why the fuck im I so retarded? I swear, my emotions are like a fucking roller coaster here. For 30 minutes, im hella happy, laughing with Anthony, kissing, talking..chillin in his room. And we leave to go to the foyer...and he says one thing I get hella hyphy. It always happens, me being fucking stupid and just screwing everything up. And then I start getting depressed, and start thinking of home and arg, it pisses me off.

So it goes like this. Tonight we were at the foyer, im all depressed and shit, I could start to see Anthony get argrivated, so I tell him Im leaving and that I can walk alone. But he doesnt like that either, and I just leave without reallying saying good bye, and whats even worse, im proabably not even going to see him tomorrow. So, I just fucked everything up. Fuck.. Im soooo in a shitty mood, and want to run and appologize, but I cant leave the fucking house cause its 11, and Im too afraid to call and try to appologize over the phone... and shit. I dont know what to do. Maybe I will just try to forget, and go cry in the comfort of my bed.

Shit, this hella sucks