Fuck this shit

I dont know what to say. I dont know what to tell you guys..

Im not feeling it right now..
I called my grandpa.. cause its his birthday. He seemed kind.. blah. Not all that great. I was like, hey its your birthday....wee. I thought it might be because he was getting old.. not in that good of a mood. Hes not that old, seriously.. but we talked for a few minutes.. and then I asked if grandma was there.. knowing I would proabably get a no cause she works during the day, unlike my grandpa who works at night. I got have the answer I was expecting, she wasnt at home...but in the miraculous place called the FUCKING HOSPITAL.

What kind of fucking shit is this anyways? I move to california, and during seventh grade, she ends up in the hospital. Me thinking its no so serious at the time, doesnt worry, but instead I was on a plane to texas within the next two hours. Now here in France, 3ish years later, im thinking I was a little lucky compared to now...california is relatively close. FUCK this shit, I always have shitty feelings about going so far away, and finally when I convince myself nothing is going to happen, something like this goes and pisses the hell out of me.

Haha, I got off the phone a few minutes later, with the excuse I didnt have that many minutes, I didnt lie, and then went and cried for like... 20 minutes until cecile finally heard me...fucking thin ass door. Fuck... And now all of you fools are off at Hannah Camp, and I alomost wish I could play ultimate to take out my anger ,or just cry on one of you guys right now.. Cause im starting to cry, and I cant see the keys on the board.. so I will stop here....